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Hey loa friends
I wasn't going to make a topic about this, because I didn't know if I should make it public or draw any more focus to it than need be. But I could really use some advice, & I don't want to keep bothering the same person about it repeatedly in pm. If anyone wants to pm me after I share, I'd be more than thankful for it!
Everyone here knows my story, that my bf of two years left me in January for another girl, I found out about her, he cut me off & hasn't made any contact with me since. He didn't answer any questions, offer any explanation, nothing. Anyway, it doesn't matter, bc I know how I attracted it step by step. Since the day he left and got with her, I feared him getting her pregnant. He wanted a baby with me so badly, but we wanted to do it the right way, and move out together (I basically stayed at his moms house with him, and sometimes my parents house) and have our careers first before we started trying. So knowing how much he wanted a baby, and how much I wanted one with him, I thought every single day that he would get this girl pregnant. When he proposed to her a month into their relationship, I just knew she was pregnant. I would search for her on fb every day waiting for one of them to make the announcement that she was pregnant. Daily I thought would someone tell me she's pregnant, & would get scared when I'd receive texts from certain ppl that they'd be telling me he just put on fb that he's having a baby. Well a few days ago I was at my coworkers house & long story short, after some pressure on my end, she told me he had gotten her pregnant & that is most likely why they did get engaged. She said her, my coworkers, and a few other people (& obviously our mutual friends on fb) knew for a few weeks but no one wanted to tell me bc they didn't know how I would react to it, and that she had been struggling with it for weeks if she should tell me or not. I couldn't believe no one told me!! It felt so surreal as she told me, & literally like I had aligned with a different reality or universe...But in that moment I felt relieved. I knew I had created this. I then really got loa was real & I was a powerful creator. I felt better bc I didn't have to stress anymore waiting to find out she was pregnant! Now she was.
So my dilemma is now I don't know what to do with this. I know that I created it, and had prepared myself mentally for it so I'm not as upset as I would have been if I hadn't been already focusing on it. At least it wasn't out of no where to me bc the more I thought about it the more I knew I was going to create it, I told myself that every day. But now that there is going to be another child involved, what do I do? I still love him, but I don't know if I can handle him having a child by her, and if I could attract him back and be okay with her always being around bc they have a child together. I don't want to always feel resentment that they had one first & me and him did not when we always wanted one together. Does anyone have any advice with how to deal with any moments of sadness I feel, or how to deal with the fact I created this, and how to go from there? It would be really appreciated. Thank you all.
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Furthermore, the reason I titled this with a question mark, is bc I do believe I created this- I thought about it every single day from the moment they got together without any evidence that she was or would be, besides the fact that she already does have another child by someone else- but could it be a possibility that instead of it being that I created it entirely, that I could have really just been intuitively picking up on it or maybe even his or their thoughts and/or vibes of it?
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I guess it doesn't matter about who created what really when it's happening? Like if the baby is coming, there's not a lot you can do about it! I guess it's up to you on how you feel about the situation and the outcome that would be best for you !
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The baby is coming, so it's irrelevant who created what at this point. Perhaps instead of focusing on that, simply understand that you were a vibrational match to that story unfolding. Which you were, because you told that same story over and over. Now, it's entirely up to you what your next move is. And as I suggested, it's probably best to keep this to yourself. Because others' opinions are unnecessary and will only cloud your judgement even more. You know what's best for you, and this is certainly one decision that should be made by you, and you only.
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I wasn't going to post about it at all, I really wasn't, but truth is, I've dealt with the majority of this breakup completely on my own. Not too many ppl cared to hear about it or check in with me or ask me about it. Only a small group of my friends. Most others would just brush me off whenever I brought him up. I've done a really good job of dealing with it on my own, and even this, but sometimes I just want someone to talk to. & I can't go to my regular friends & talk about loa to them bc they either don't know about it or don't believe in it, so who am I supposed to get my feelings out to or come up with solutions or ideas or just share thoughts with if I can't share it with my regular friends & family or here either? I just decided I really wanted someone to talk to to get things out to, that's why i decided to post about it anyway and said if anyone could PM I'd appreciate it.
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It's not that people don't want to hear. It's that people don't want you to PERPETUATE that vibration. Being an LOA forum, most people here understand emphatically that discussing what you dont want or a reality you want to change.. is really only bringing more of that to you.
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I understand that perfectly, but my question was just on how to deal with the fact that I created it & any feelings I feel towards it, and how to move forward from there. If I knew how to do that on my own completely I wouldn't ask to begin with. I think I'm doing pretty damn good with it as I am not a crazy mess about it & didn't even jump to post about this as its been a few days now since I've even been told, and I really just wanted some humble advice on how to handle it & move forward since it was my creation.
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Perhaps dropping the subject and focussing on you for a while might help to raise your vibration sufficiently so that your next step becomes clearer. I think it's important to soften your view that you totally created a baby. Because you didn't actually create a child, your ex and his girlfriend did. That's their co-creation. And you were a vibrational match to this occurring in your reality. It doesn't really matter how, and nobody, not even Einstein has been able to explain HOW exactly things are created. The point is, your ex has a baby on the way, and you need to find a way to feel ok about it.
Nobody has suggested you aren't doing well. And the advice you received already is spot on. We are all actually co-creators. And what has come into your reality is a situation where your ex has co-created a baby with someone else. It's a physical manifestation, and the baby is coming. So now it's up to you to decide what feels best for you moving forward. Truly, nobody else can advise you. It's a tricky situation, and not many people will be able to humbly advise a way forward that will satisfy you. What you create from here depends entirely upon your beliefs and your practiced vibration. And again, that's something that only you can drive. The best advice moving forward is to ask yourself what you honestly desire, knowing what you know, and to move towards feeling better.
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You DID NOT create their pregnancy. He made her pregnant, not you. They create their own reality. It shocks me when I see statements like yours, how could you make her pregnant? Maybe you felt their vibes, felt whats going to happen next, but dont blame yourself for it because it is absurd.
It puzzles me every time when I see someting like this. We are not gods of other peoples destinies. They are masters of their own reality.
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Perhaps dropping the subject and focussing on you for a while might help to raise your vibration sufficiently so that your next step becomes clearer. I think it's important to soften your view that you totally created a baby. Because you didn't actually create a child, your ex and his girlfriend did. That's their co-creation. And you were a vibrational match to this occurring in your reality. It doesn't really matter how, and nobody, not even Einstein has been able to explain HOW exactly things are created. The point is, your ex has a baby on the way, and you need to find a way to feel ok about it.
Nobody has suggested you aren't doing well. And the advice you received already is spot on. We are all actually co-creators. And what has come into your reality is a situation where your ex has co-created a baby with someone else. It's a physical manifestation, and the baby is coming. So now it's up to you to decide what feels best for you moving forward. Truly, nobody else can advise you. It's a tricky situation, and not many people will be able to humbly advise a way forward that will satisfy you. What you create from here depends entirely upon your beliefs and your practiced vibration. And again, that's something that only you can drive. The best advice moving forward is to ask yourself what you honestly desire, knowing what you know, and to move towards feeling better.
This is confusing to me, only because you told me I did indeed absolutely manifest this, & that we create whatever appears in our reality completely. So this is sort of opposite of the normal explanations given, unless I am understanding wrong. To say I was a vibrational match to it for it to appear in my reality, does that mean that everything happens anyway, you just don't actually know about it or see it unless you're a match to it? So they'd have a baby all along..I just wouldn't find out until I was a match to finding out.
Also, if we are now talking that everything is co-creation, then doesn't that mean you can never create something involving another person unless they want to create it as well? This can get tricky once we start breaking it down in this way, and is most likely why everyone gets so confused once they start their loa journey- there is never one simple opinion, it Is always conflicting. Lets break it down even further...What if they co-create to be together forever? If they are creating to be together forever, then my trying to co-create with them to get my guy back would never work. And that wouldn't just apply to my situation, but could be anyone's. How can we say everything and anything is possible involving others- if it's all co-creation? That means they are deciding as well- not just you. And furthermore if co-creation, I did not manifest him leaving me for her on my own, he would have also decided that he didn't want to be with me anymore and that he wanted someone else and then they co-created for him to leave me & for them to get together. Can you see how much the idea of co-creation can then make it seem like we aren't in much control at all? That or I am just not understanding, & I can accept that if so.