Sam wrote:

iinikkii wrote:

Thanks pixel, Sam and cherished. I KNOW y'all are right! Intellectually I Know what you guys are saying is right.. I guess it's the taking it past the intellectual part that gets me. I'm tired of going in this vicious circle. I know that I've changed, I know I've become such a better person since taking this journey, I know that I have learned so much that is going to be of value to me for the rest of my life. I know that I deserve what I want and that I am worthy.. Now I just want to KNOW that I'm waking up one day to his face again

That confidence will come as you raise your vibration. You can't access that type of faith from a lower vibration because they're two totally different frequencies. I know exactly what it feels like to understand something intellectually but not being able to emotionally control yourself. That was me just two months ago. I went through that same exact struggle and it can be really frustrating.

I promise, promise, promise what FINALLY helped was taking my attention off him and diving into other things like school, and seeing my friends. Now, I definitely still thought of him a lot but I made my MAIN focus to feel better in general. At first I had to sort of force myself to appreciate little things. I remember telling Cherished that I felt like cheesy Disney princess and it felt totally awkward. But it truly did help raise my vibe and it raise it high enough to the point where I started to enjoy the things I used to enjoy, like school, and video games.

I started to get ME back and that's when really wonderful things started to come into my life. As I got to a higher vibration and learned how to stay there longer, my faith went through the roof. And trust me, I was the biggest doubter of all.

Seriously this is it right now for what sam said. I don't have any major big omg changes but internally I have major changes. I am getting the me back that brought him into my life the first time and brought him again the second time. I was at that low vibe for a few minutes yesterday but for the first time I was able to bounce right back and it comes easier and easier (I was miserable when everything went south like bad when I first found loa again) but now I am laughing, I'm going out and doing things for the first time  (I sighed up for kayaking and rock climbing omg that was such an achievement for me who didn't grow up doing these things)  and focusing on a career. With the desire of meeting with him in my vortex again. All these things I'm doing, it boosts my confidence and makes me like myself so much.

And you can too, and you know what, that makes you the fun amaZing sexy person your honey boo boo  fell for in the first place. It's how you see yourself. You are not the sad, miserable, no life without him person. I feel like i know I can get my man back again cause I'm awesome and I'm amazing and he knows it and wants some of that good energy. But if anything I'm happy looking at myself in the mirror. My faith is spiked because I play with loa games and have fun with it, and at the end of the day, I make myself happy. I am a creator and I create happiness. You will get there just like cotton said in another post, you have to be determine to focus on good happy self/alignment/source. The reality you see is an echo. It's from past decisions. Everything will start to turn when you get that high vibes and make it a decision every morning to wake up happy.

I don't want someone else.. I know what I want.. And I know that it IS him.. For sure

Cherished wrote:

iinikkii wrote:

I don't want someone else.. I know what I want.. And I know that it IS him.. For sure

 
Right. Then let's do that. But you have to try and get past the "I doubt this" every few days. You truly need to consistently be feeling much better than that. So start slow. Back to the beginning. From where you are now, you can definitely find some better thoughts. And you can absolutely practice gratitude and focus on yourself. This is about knowing your worth and truly vibrating your own sense of peace and calm and positive expectation out into the world. And we know you can do it, you do it all the time now. 😘

Maybe I should start over.. I know that I've Come so far and that I can go even further. He isn't here yet, but I can still chose to feel good now. Feeling good is important because it feels good to feel good. Things have gotten so much better in my overall life already, and I look forward to even better and better. I have this desire for a reason. If it was impossible I wouldn't feel any negative emotion about it at all. i love who I am becoming, I love falling more and more in love with me. If it weren't for this journey I've been on, I may have never really learned that it's important for me to love me. I believe he is the one. I believe that God/source knows what I want. I am happy with the progress I have made this far. I want to be ready for my new relationship with him. I'm glad I have been brought to this place and time to learn about the law and discover all this knowledge that is going to continue to change my life forever. It excites me to think about how I really can change my life. I am learning, I am getting better at this.

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But see, you don't have to start over! You're not weeks away, it's only VIBRATIONS! Have you read "Wishes fulfilled" by Wayne Dyer? I recently revisited that book and it is SO powerful. It helped me to persevere.. And really persevering is simply a habit. It's turning your thoughts around again and again until it becomes a neurological pathway.. And EVERY thought can become one when practices consistently. You have come SOOOOOOO far, I'm so proud of you. You don't quit the whole game if you drop the ball- you just have a chuckle and pick it back up. 💜

He feels like home to me. I love his smile and the way we always laugh together. I love how smart and talented he is. I love his eyes and when he looks at me it makes me melt. I love how even with all my physical flaws he makes assures me of how beautiful he thinks I am. I just love him, he is without a doubt everything I've ever dreamed of in a man.  I just love him