happyinlove wrote:

RollingRock33 wrote:

GOD ******* damnit. I finally got an orientation for a job, and I OFFERED to clean my mother's car yesterday, and I left my two forms of identification in it... so they told me I can't attend orientation. Looks like I don't have my job no either. 

**** THIS WEEK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

its ok to be upset let it out but then change your vibe and better things will come. Maybe you are suppose to find a better job? 

... Maybe. Thanks... God damn this week was just horrible. She said she has no feeluings for me and is distant/ignoring, and this happens. A+, RR.

lemon wrote:

RollingRock33 wrote:

happyinlove wrote:

its ok to be upset let it out but then change your vibe and better things will come. Maybe you are suppose to find a better job? 

... Maybe. Thanks... God damn this week was just horrible. She said she has no feeluings for me and is distant/ignoring, and this happens. A+, RR.

Dude I know you said you find it hard to believe in loa all the way but if you did some reading you would understand that everything happening in your now is an echo from before. Your vibes from before. It's how you react that puts your future together. It's all good to be frustrated but this is just showing you it's giving you more what you're focusing on, negativity. Change or reset your vibe

I've read and watched so much on the LoA... I've even "seen" things that "can't be just coincidences" - but there's still that doubt. That "high" from those experiences only lasts a day or two. Then I'm back to doubting and being skeptical.

So I want her back... how do I stop worrying about her coming back? Like how do I stop the doubts and try to stay hopeful?

lar019 wrote:

If you want to stop worrying/doubting - simply put, you change your thoughts. You stop thinking about it.
It's not an easy thing to do, and it takes effort to stop your mind from drifting back to her - but if you really want her back - it's definitely worth the effort.

And that quote - is kind of encouraging...it's a challenge. She can't read the future; but you can create it!! My guy keeps saying things like "I hope things work out between us this time", etc - and I chuckle inside, because I know it'll work out. I'm creating it, and it's turning out beautifully. You are slowly discovering just how powerful you can be - but there's work involved; and lazy thinking isn't going to get you anywhere. 

You have a thread of 15 pages of AMAZING advice on how to start - and no one is saying that right now you need to believe fully; just focus on your thoughts for now. Focus them on things that you want, vs things that you don't want. If thinking about a relationship with your girl makes you sad, don't think about it. Think about anything else - even it's small. Meditation is also really helpful when your mind is racing...there's tons of guided meditations on youtube. But it's all your thoughts - and right now, your thoughts are creating more negativity in your life.

It makes me SO happy to think about how we were... but then raelity hits and I realize she's so distant now. But thinking of her does make me happy. I want to be able to think about those things without realizing how FUCKED and impossible things are right now...

lemon wrote:

Beside her what Iin your life makes you happy? You have to be happy for your own sake/life

I don't know... and I've looked. I mean, I enjoy playing guitar, I enjoy video games, etc. But I can always feel my heart beating for her whenever I'm doing these things... It's like she IS the key to my happiness. I can find that temporary happiness, but in my mind, she's still tehre and I'm still missing her and doubting