I think I figured it out today after doing some deep thinking on it, I think that there is something in me that wants to stay single for a little bit longer and evolve more by myself before I'm ready for a relationship with my specific person or with any person. I think the negative emotion I get about my situation is just a type of jealousy that I feel someone is in my place, but I know that my place for right this moment is by myself. I think I still have stuff I want to get through and achieve by myself before I feel fully proud of myself, like keeping myself happy and not relying on others for that which I'm getting really good at but I want to be more secure about. That's probably why he isn't bobbing around me, because even judging from my interractions with other men, no one I have come across this year has wanted me to really be in a relationship with them and that's because I'm deep down not open to a relationship with anyone right now and my vibration shows it. I think right now I'm feeling a bit lonely, wishing that my person was here as a boyfriend, but I have a lot of stress going on right now so it's really just my old habit of wanting someone to lean on a lot when I think I can't cope but I know I can. Obviously I miss and would like that person back (or someone better) but I think the reason it isn't happening right now is actually in my favour because I'm not finished being by myself yet

ShootingStar wrote:

Hi Cheer-actually you reminded me of a time where I actually DID miss a guy I dumped while I was with my new boyfriend who is ironically the guy I'm talking about now and it happened while we were watching a movie that was my old boyfriend's favourite movie so thank you for reminding me of that :3 It's a meaningful week for me this week because it now marks a year since he left and we broke up and so I'm having all these thoughts about my future and whether I am holding myself back. I think you're right about having faith, but I think I'm going to try my best now to be more open to the possibility of someone new and keep the faith that my person will come back into my life at the exact right time and moment and let it happen without thinking about it too much anymore. I'm really grateful for this forum because the more I see similarities of my story in everyone else's story the more I realise what the best course of action to take is, but it's also nice to have other people's insights into my personal situation because that gives me more clarity and probably them more clarity too , like you've just done  

I've seen many people get back together after one...three...five...ten years! You don't have to put your life on hold and being open to new love can release a lot of resistance that you have. Doubting does hold people back. Know that you can absolutely be with your guy, but if thinking about him is causing too much resistance maybe think about the feeling of being in love that makes you smile and feel good.