Everythingisbeautiful wrote:

What's going on, belle? Just keep holding the vision firmly in your mind and do things to make yourself feel better. Please don't beat yourself up over anything. Just continue your journey.

I don't know

I saw him a couple of weeks ago had coffee with him, he got curious when I got a notification on my phone, he had to go vote and I knew he was exhausted so I stayed with him to keep him awake (big fine if you don't vote in Aus) and a few times he remarked "still following me". In the line he kept nudging me as he does and looking at me.

My back was turned looking at a cafe when he came out from voting and got to a safe distance before sending me a message on fb messenger thanking me for the company and he was going to head home. That hurt as I was waiting to say good bye instead of just walking off.

He's gotten more distant and he was sort of rude after I rang him to tell him I got my job he didn't answer but sent me a message 30 minutes later
"Just got home Belle what's up?"

Its not even a friendship. It's nothing

My new job is not even a minute from his home but it's nothing to do with why I applied and accepted the job.

Can't help but think he has a gf

Is it really worth it if you have to feel good every single time you want contact?

Cherished wrote:

Are you seriously asking that? Is it really worth it to feel awesome every day?  Lol.

It's not coming out right

Cherished wrote:

I'm going to ban you from ending your posts with that cranky face 😘

Oh snap.

J and I haven't spoken for like two weeks and he ignored my voice message on messenger for ages. Anyway I decided to send him a message yesterday telling him when my restaurant opens to the public and I felt it real that he'd reply and he did.

He said he went there last Saturday because he thought we were open and he thought he came to late in the day lol. But he didn't try to talk to me about it.

I told him when I finish up training tomorrow if he wants to say hello. He's seen it but hasn't replied.