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Alright, there is no negativity in this post, no tears to come about. Still trying to put the pieces together, btw not trying to figure out how things will happen. I have been getting a lot of synchronicities, I seeing the number 1111 everywhere and I got a saying that said all falling into place. So I know the alignment is coming together. But something that is off is my loves mixed emotions. He will tell me to move on and to find someone better. But the moment I feel the need to cry he will cry right with me. He is not the type of person to cry with someone unless they mean that much to him. I'm crying not because of my situation but because I'm releasing all the stress that I have bottled up.
So I get synchronicities and I know they have to do with my relationship. They came about when I was going downward again. But here he is telling me to find someone better for me (not that that bothers me), but is ready to cry if I do (this bothers me). I have never seen this vulnerable side of him and I am falling for this side for him because I can sense his feelings from it. So is what happening a normal part of the process? Is this something that happens in the beginning before being in complete alignment and being together?
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Yeah I had that a few times from my ex, he said to me a couple of times that I was perfect, like too perfect for him, and I deserved to have someone like this or like that. I think it's insecurity also being used to being treated a certain way by their mothers, I know it's weird, but the guys I met who have colder mothers are more inclined to say this than boys who have mothers who love them almost too much....it's like they were taught at an early age that they only deserve cold and hard love, not warm love. This is why men 'love bitches' I think too.I do know that because he said that, you gotta actually do most of the emotional work to get back together, you actually have to show him that you want in and you want it a LOT. A lot of men would take the approach that they're 'too good' for their exs, but in this case, you have the opposite. Unless, he's lying and just wants you to move on but I doubt it if he cried. A boy only cries over someone he really loves but feels he isn't good enough for. Show him he makes you happy, that's the key
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Yeah I had that a few times from my ex, he said to me a couple of times that I was perfect, like too perfect for him, and I deserved to have someone like this or like that. I think it's insecurity also being used to being treated a certain way by their mothers, I know it's weird, but the guys I met who have colder mothers are more inclined to say this than boys who have mothers who love them almost too much....it's like they were taught at an early age that they only deserve cold and hard love, not warm love. This is why men 'love bitches' I think too.I do know that because he said that, you gotta actually do most of the emotional work to get back together, you actually have to show him that you want in and you want it a LOT. A lot of men would take the approach that they're 'too good' for their exs, but in this case, you have the opposite. Unless, he's lying and just wants you to move on but I doubt it if he cried. A boy only cries over someone he really loves but feels he isn't good enough for. Show him he makes you happy, that's the key
I sensed insecurity from him too. I was calling to his subconscious and his subconscious kept saying he was a fool for letting me go. But he is scared of hurting me again. Also, he gets really worried over my health. I can tell when he capitalizes certain words. I do tell him how much I appreciate him. I guess he just needs to hear it more.
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Our conversation started with him saying I need to find someone to care for. Saying how I need to find the right one. Then I go on talking about how I have trust issues and that I have been pretending to be someone I am not for so long I got used to it. That is when he said please remember who you are and please don't cry. I asked him why I shouldn't cry and he said cuz he'll cry. My heart sunk because I knew he really would. With how he gets worried if it sounds like I am mistreating my health I know he really would cry. I think what bothers me is how down he is and how that may be what is holding him back. Not in the sense that he won't eventually give, my heart just trembles when he gets like this.
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Another synchronicity from the universe, was the quote if you love them, set them free, you know they love you when they return. I let him go and then he came back to me.
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Is having faith in him something that will help my situation? His feelings are clearly there, but he seems to run away from them.
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Okay, so if I look closer there is progress. Sure he is nervous to see me and sure he keeps insisting on finding someone "better", but he worries about me, he cries knowing I cry and he is always trying to cheer me up. Isn't that where I should be focusing?