Hello all

So lately I've been reflecting and trying to figure out how things changed over the months. There's a few things I couldn't quite understand and I thought maybe someone here could help me

First, there were a few months last year, I almost cried every day for my guy I would listen to sad songs and just cry for hours on end and I could not stop, I was not doing any loa stuff back then but I thought since I could not stop I'd just accept the situation and be sad for as long as it lasted. Then...a few months pasted, we spent the holidays together (I did not expect that at all) and got closer and now, for the past few months I just cannot bring myself to cry over him and this situation anymore. I don't understand what happened here I want him just the same if not more.

Second thing, I've been visualizing and affirming regularly for a week or two. Did not really talk to him during that time, didn't really care about signs but got some anyway or so I thought. I feel like all the visualizing RSing and affirming really made it easier for me to believe that what I want is a sure thing. I'm not sure if it means I'm on the right track, any ideas?

Any reply would be greatly appreciated, love y'all