lar019 wrote:

BooLaLa, I can completely relate to how you're feeling, as I was definitely there at one point, prior to finding LOA; especially the part about not able to move on. I used that feeling to really motivate me to do what I had to do to get him back. When I was at that point, I could recognize that I played a part in the breakup, but I truly felt more betrayed, and hurt than what I ever dished out towards him; and so the breakup was definitely more his fault. But despite my anger, and every other negative feeling, something inside me would not let him go - the idea of moving on made me sick to my stomach. And I knew the only way we could reconcile is if I could forgive him - and that's not an easy thing for me, as I can hold a grudge really easily for a very long time. 

What helped me is that I wrote letters to him in my journal - I never sent ANY OF THEM! A lot of those letters were extremely angry, hateful letters, while others were just plain desperate, almost taking full responsibility for the breakup - I wrote whatever I was feeling at the time; whatever I was wanting to say. And because I had no intention of ever sending those letters, I was never hung up on the "hope for a response" and could focus on the release of emotions. Personally, I feel like anger is something that if it's not released, it's not going to go away - it will simply hide and grow quietly inside as resentment, and it will come out at the worst time. It's important to address it. I'm curious to know how you felt after you sent that message - was a part of you a little relieved that you said what you said? If so, maybe this process will help you out too.

You're at an advantage than I was though - because you already know about LOA, and so you know that something inside of you attracted her behaviour. You may not be able to see it right now; you may not be able to identify those things inside of you right now, and that's ok. Personally I feel like that insight comes after releasing the anger, and starting to find forgiveness. I disagree with a couple of things LoveIsReal has said; or at least I feel like you may not be at the point for his advice. My advice is work on expressing/feeling/releasing that anger inside of you in a constructive way (NOT talking to her though) and then starting to look at the situation from her perspective, and seeing how you attracted this.

I also wouldn't bother apologizing right now to her - I don't think anything good can come from that actually. First, I think you're too angry to mean it - which means that apology is really saying "I'm sorry for saying mean things to you - but I really felt that way." Second, I also think that if you reach out now, you're going to once again be hoping for a response/reaction; and I think it's a waste of time to be sitting waiting for that. And if she does actually reach out - nothing good will come from that either, because you are not ready for it vibrationally. Third, she is probably PO'd at you right now; but give it some time, and she'll probably also realize that she hurt you and you went off the deep end and expressed it. If I got that hateful letter, and then a few days later got an apology - I would think the apology was bullshit. Just another way for you to get a reaction out of me - and that's why she blocked you; I would have done the same thing. Time apart is really your best friend here - for both of you. Let go of your anger; find forgiveness; find yourself and discover how you created this situation; and when you become a vibrational match to your relationship - she'll start to wonder about you, wonder if you're still angry, and will cautiously reach out to you and find an even more loving, caring, forgiving guy with arms wide open for her to come home too. That's when I think you should apologize - when it's 100% sincere and she can feel that. Otherwise, just let go of the fact that you sent that letter - you can't take it back now. 

That's my take on the situation anyways. 

That is probably the best answer that resonated with me. Everyone's input has helped but yeah letting the anger and rage go is my main concern. It's what I need to do, I've known that for a while and no matter how much I tried it seem to just build up. The last 2 times she cut me off, I didn't have any contact with her and it was always 6/8 wks later she'd msg me or I'd bump into her somewhere and then she'd start msgn and chasing me. The thing is with my girl is I've never been able to truly move on, no matter how much I try to tell myself otherwise. I even have been going with other women, 1, for needs and 2, to try and move on but it only made my love for her stronger.

Right I've deactivated my Facebook as that is a big one that set me back. I've read everyones input over and over and anymore advice would be really grateful please guys. I'm ready to get my girl back again. I can do this as I've done it twice before and last time I got her back, she was engaged to her ex so I can do this!!

Cheer wrote:

Of course you can do this. It worked before and it WILL work again!  It doesn't matter that you have to start again. Your happiness is really important. Be happy and peaceful  and know it will come into your experience.  Step inside the reality where the perfect relationship is already yours.

That really made my day and was a hell of a boost, one that I so desperately needed, thank you!!

First you need to let go of the panic. Everytime I think of something I try to change my mind to what I am grateful for. Or I start singing a song (peanut butter jelly time idk why but it works) I manifested my guy back before and now I have manifested him coming back again. Do a gratitude journal it helps put things in perspective.

All this advice is amazing and it gives me the boost I need!! If anyone else has any more advice to what they might think would help would be great and very appreciated.