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I've been having such a lovely time with my guy, he came back to me unexpectedly and wasn't even who I was initially trying to attract back - but in the process I've realised I never stopped loving him and I'm so blessed the universe has brought him back to me.
We haven't labelled our relationship, and he's going away in a few weeks only for a few weeks he says but isn't sure. Upon hearing this my vibe has totally gone down, I'm panicking, grasping and worrying to the point he said 'don't be too dependant on me, I'm just an idiot' he's truly not, the kindest best person I know.
It feels a bit like a cruel joke I just got him back and now he's being taken away. I've been trying to manifest him asking me to be his girlfriend, telling me he's in love with me. But that feels a bit hopeless now as he's felt my needy vibe again and may run a mile.
I DONT want to be the one to profess my strong feelings, I would love love love it if it was him to do that. But I'm scared I've blown it by being too sensitive and emotional. I just want to feel that security before he goes, but I can already feel him pulling away, he's so busy and we haven't been seeing each other as much.
I hate all the rules people say in life about not telling people you care, playing it cool yknow. So I'm not sure where to go from here.
I'm supposed to be seeing him later today and I feel sick with anxiety that he's going to end it, but cancel that as I don't want it! I want him to spend the night, for us to carry on as we are and see how it goes. But I'm scared my actions have already made him make up his mind to end it... Again...
Bloody hell... Really struggling here and any soothing help would be appreciated...
Love to you all
Xxx
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Oh and I can't stop crying, get out out out of me tears!
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Breathe! Calm down sweetheart. It's not the end of the universe even if he does go away.. And a few weeks is NOTHING! Time is irrelevant, it truly is. You have to get a grip on your emotions though, because this is not an adorable vibe! π From your alignment you are magical and powerful and wonderful. Know that, and really try to close your eyes and FEEL that. You can transform ANY situation from a place of love and peace. There is nothing to be anxious about. Trust that him going away is part of the perfect planning that the universe is doing on your behalf. There are a million reasons why this can work in your favour. Now is not the time to freak out on him. You're a goddess. So stand there in your power and BE ONE! It's not about hiding your feelings, but it IS about centering yourself and releasing those feelings that are negative, needy and desperate. None of that will serve you well, and you know it. So it's time to realise that going away is never forever, and that you always ALWAYS have a spiritual connection with him that is FAR more powerful than your physical self can even comprehend. Take refuge in that thought, and try to relax. Let him go, gracefully. Do it properly and he'll be back before you know it π
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Cherished wrote:
Breathe! Calm down sweetheart. It's not the end of the universe even if he does go away.. And a few weeks is NOTHING! Time is irrelevant, it truly is. You have to get a grip on your emotions though, because this is not an adorable vibe! π From your alignment you are magical and powerful and wonderful. Know that, and really try to close your eyes and FEEL that. You can transform ANY situation from a place of love and peace. There is nothing to be anxious about. Trust that him going away is part of the perfect planning that the universe is doing on your behalf. There are a million reasons why this can work in your favour. Now is not the time to freak out on him. You're a goddess. So stand there in your power and BE ONE! It's not about hiding your feelings, but it IS about centering yourself and releasing those feelings that are negative, needy and desperate. None of that will serve you well, and you know it. So it's time to realise that going away is never forever, and that you always ALWAYS have a spiritual connection with him that is FAR more powerful than your physical self can even comprehend. Take refuge in that thought, and try to relax. Let him go, gracefully. Do it properly and he'll be back before you know it π
Thank you Cherished, you just saved my crazy ass. I'm reading that over and over and over β€οΈ Now I need to stop beating myself up for slipping back and letting him see it.
I'm hoping it goes well with him, would love it if he told me he loves me and wants me, so sending that out there.
Xxx
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No need to beat yourself up- if you can find your balance he won't even recall the weirdness. Promise. Override the whole encounter and fill yourself up with strength and grace. Calm. You can do it, you're a wonderful inspiration to others here.. Back up the ladder you go π