Hi everyone, so I've been following this forum for a while and finally decided to join in so I can participate and also get help from other people
I'll try and make it as short as possible but I do have a habit of rambling haha

So I was with my boyfriend for 3 years and I love him so so so much, we had a great relationship until I stupidly decided to get in the way of myself! I was in a really bad place towards the end of last year, I lost my job, felt like my life was going no where and basically depended on him for all my happiness! But I still wasn't happy and kept thinking maybe we aren't right for eachother, maybe I should break up with him etc etc and then one day at the end of January it all ended! We actually ended on really good terms, he said that he just didn't think that he made me happy anymore and we just weren't working, we need space etc etc he even said that he hopes we can work things out etc so my situation really isn't that bad! Anyways I didn't beg or plead or anything I accepted it and that's that.

Then I was searching for a solution, and came across the no contact rule, so I implemented it and just didn't contact him at all, I kept searching for more info when I came across the law of attraction and something just clicked, it instantly made sense to me, especially as I had been thinking that things only starting going crap for me when I started thinking crap thoughts. I realised that it was unfair of me to depend on him to make me happy, and that if I couldn't make myself happy then no one could. I also realised that I had become a completely different person to who I was when we first met. So I started working on myself, making myself happy and feel good and I also did the visualisations and the positive thinking etc, so 3 weeks went by, when I suddenly got a call from him!! I was so excited, we chatted for half an hour about what we had been up to etc and agreed to talk again at another time. When I asked what made him call he said that he had had the urge to call me for the last few days (do you think that's because I had been focusing on him calling me??)

Anyways after that for about a week for some reason I just felt ****!! I didn't know why but I felt so depressed, and then after a week one day I just woke up and I felt great!! Does anyone else have these unexplained fluctuations? And does anyone know why I might of felt **** afterwards and then randomly felt great again??

Also, i feel like I've been getting quite a few signs, so for example, last night I had a dream that we had got back together and when I woke up I was like ffs!! And just got in a really bad mood because it didn't actually happen.... (Or did it?) anyways, so yeah I was in a bad mood, and I was on my way to work and I was just thinking you know what I can't even be bothered to think about him anymore!  Anyway this woman next to me was reading the paper so I glanced over and had a read lol when I saw that one of the articles was titled 'I'm so happy to have gotten back together with me ex', I instantly thought.. It's a sign! Maybe the universe is trying to tell me 'hey don't give up! People get back together with their ex's all the time!' ??

Last week all I had thought about all day was I wish I could just see him! I had an absolute nightmare getting home, I went to the tube station and it was closed due to over crowding! So I walked to another one got on there and then it stopped at the station I needed to go to and said we aren't opening the doors here because the station is over crowded, so I had to get off st the next station and walk about half an hour to get to where I needed to be, when j left the station it started raining and a bus rocked up that was going to where I needed to go but said 'via so and so' which was the nearest station to where my bf lives! He literally lives round the corner, so I thought ha weird maybe I'll just go! Anyways I decided to just walk, so I eventually got to where I needed to be, and got on the train, and I was thinking ah I wish I was just with him now, I then signed on to Instagram and the first thing I saw on my newsfeed was something kendall Jenner posted and it said 'you're obviously in the wrong place' I thought.. Wtf that is weird!

Do you think these 2 examples are signs?? Obviously Iv been getting more, like I see his name everywhere and Iv been seeing tonnes or articles recently about ex's getting back together aswel.. Or do you just think I'm over thinking things that I'm seeing?? I also feel like I get signs when I'm in a worse mood
Do you think that I manifested that call from him? Because if I did then I can manifest more right??

I'm deffinitely working on training my mind, some days I feel so positive but as soon as I start feeling positive I often get that little voice of doubt, so annoying, although I think I'm getting better.

Any advice/encouragement/answer to my questions on what you think would be very much appreciated! And sorry that it's so long! Haha

Thanks