iinikkii wrote:

So this morning I've been reading through the forum .. (I find myself getting on the forum immediately when I wake up, I think the reason is because it helps get me to a good feeling place) .. After reading through the forum I started to reflect on things that some of you have said, and things that have happened along my journey. Cherished post on unconditional love really got me to thinking. Sooo.. I wanted to share with you guys something that happened just maybe over a month ago. So we all know that I'm wanting my MB back, well, not too long ago the powerball was 800billion. I remember sitting on my porch talking to my brother I law about what it would be like, what would I do, buy, etc. just how awesome it would be. Well he asked me a question that day that got me to write this post. He asked #1 "if you won the 800 million dollars, would you still want him back? " I without any hesitation, I didn't even have to think about it I said emphatically Yes! He then said "you mean after all that you've been through, after all that has happened, you mean to tell me that if you won that money, and he showed back up, you would take him back" I again stated "absolutely" .. So then he asked me another question, "if you had to chose between him and that much money, which one would you chose?" .. I then answered.. I would chose him, there isn't enough money in the world that could take his place.

So with sharing this, and reading the post cherished made about unconditional love, I started thinking about that conversation and what it really means to unconditionally love him. I think I'm on the right track. YES I want to be with him more than anything in the world. But you know what, I love him regardless. ( even saying that I get a little uneasy bc I don't want the universe to think that I am saying that I don't want him back..as silly as that sounds, because I do) but I don't just love him if he's standing right beside me, I don't just love him when he is WITH me.. I love him no matter where he is or what he is doing or whom he is doing it with. I just LOVE him.

I don't know exactly where I'm going with this, or what I'm actually trying to say.. I know I'm not going to die if I don't hear from him today, next week or month. I don't want him to BE MY WHOLE LIFE! I want to share MY WHOLE LIFE WITH HIM. I think I may be staring to notice the difference between the two. I want to be the best I can be so that WHEN he comes back around I can give him my best. I deserve the best and so does he.

thanks for reading my post!

Yes..i thnk you've hit the nail on the head with this !!
 

You're very welcome .....and wishing you GREAT success !!!
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What beautiful progress you are making! I'm so happy to see this 😘🌈