Hi Beautifuls,

I apologise for what transpired overnight with Adam.

I want to say this, and I hope that you can all understand. This is an LOA forum, where we practice the art of love, belief, happiness and unconditional living. Anything that detracts from the journey you are all so gallantly trying to live will be removed. Allow me to explain why.

For almost 10 years, I was emotionally abused by my husband. He threatened to kill himself many times. In the final year of our marriage I lost my mom to cancer, and I was forced to give birth very early on the day of her funeral. Biggest blessing of my life. It woke me up from a lifetime of feeling like I was a victim. It changed my life forever, as it literally catapulted me into my own awakening as a deliberate creator.

I learnt that my husband was full of fear. He was not a monster. He was scared and misaligned, and so far from his higher self that he was blind to his own behaviour. BUT he would not  listen to anybody. He is a powerful creator just like the rest of us, but for now it's not the lesson he needs to learn. Perhaps he needs another repeat of the pattern before he also awakens. And that's ok. I had to surrender to that.

I was able to forgive him, because I could see very clearly that his actions came from the roots of utter despair and fear that he lived amongst every day of his life. BUT instead of awakening to this fact and turning towards love, he still to this day has chosen instead to continue down the road to destruction. That is his choice, and I have no right to try and control or change another person's journey. He has lessons that I trust he will learn, because I believe with all my heart that at the centre of every being we are all whole, all eternally loving, and all perfect.

I had to let go of my need to change him. And I had to let go of the guilt and despair I felt about NOT being able to change him. This is HIS mission. When I became a mommy, it became absolutely crystal clear to me all of a sudden. From my state of misalignment and fear, I had zero power. No influence. No ability to help anyone. But from my own alignment, I have the ability to create my life the way I desire it to be, and I have incredible influence.

The piece you need to take away from this is that the OTHER person may or may not be ready to awaken. You can't force it, you can't argue it, you can't control it. You can try to help people, but the MINUTE they pull YOU from your place of steadiness, is the moment you are no longer able to be of service to yourself or others. If you find yourself upset by the drama of others, it's time to regroup. The other will be fine. My husband is still here, and still fighting himself. He is alone in the boxing ring, and he will continue to punch himself in the face until he awakens. My cousin DID kill himself. He made that choice, and decided that the easiest option was to re-emerge with source energy. And that's ok too. I know that he was and will always be an incredible being of light and love. The limitations of our egoistic mind are too much for some to handle. When we return to source energy, we are WHOLE again, limitless, ageless, and perfect.

Your journey has brought you tons place where you are awakened. You have stumbled upon the fact that you create your life. It's an incredible awakening, and it has its challenges. Your ego will always be there to fight you, and to take you back to anger, fear and despair. But you can control it. You can transcend it altogether. Make YOUR journey your focus. Release your NEED to help others. The best thing you can ever possibly do to help others is to maintain your own alignment. If they are unable to hear you, if they aren't yet ready to awaken.. then it's not your job to try and make them. When they are ready, as you all are.. THEN, and only then can they hear you and resonate with you.