So, I have come to realize I need to work on myself more and am starting to go back to doing things I did when I did feel good about myself. As well as continue working on the loa excercises. I made a post about how my darling has been acting cold towards me and calling me a *****. But it is all a mere reflection of what is going on inside my inner reality.

He is just acting on that, so I thought I should post about my progress as it goes along until I feel whole again, and he is in complete bliss with me. So today was a bit more better with him. He wasn't so cold, but he was trying to bring me down for eating a cupcake. I just laughed because I know a cupcake won't harm me and that it's from a past thought. That he would put his weight insecurity on me.

Then I gave him a speech how he is fine the way he is and that he shouldn't be upset for having some fat. He seemed a bit annoyed by it, but I remember when he gave me these kinds of speeches. I would get annoyed, but eventually I would appreciate that he told me that because it shows he cares about my well being. So even though he is annoyed right now, I expect him to appreciate what I said later on.

Other then that his affections are still minimum, but I won't let that bother me. After all he was the one that contacted me again and wanted to see me. He still loves me or else he wouldn't still be talking to me. Even if he is distant, I can make him love me much more than before. I can't let something like that make me give up. I mean, so many people would be happy in my shoes right now if their darlings were contacting them right now.

So I should not let go of my progress with him and myself. I cherish him and I cherish myself more than I have been showing. So for both our sakes I will create a happy future.

Last edited by holistichealing (2/25/2016 10:30 pm)