I wonder who will post here....

Certainly it will be someone who cares a lot about people and thier mental health. Certainly.

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Listen to your heart, guys.

veggiepizzaforever wrote:

I saw a psychiatrist today and she wrote me a prescription for my depression (mood stabilizers and something to kill the craving for alcohol; I have not decided if I am going to take meds). I was wondering if anyone on here has battled their depression and could give me advice?

I found this, which I will be reading fully later (I'm rushing out of the office in a few): http://www.real-life-law-of-attraction.com/how-to-overcome-depression-with-law-of-attraction.html

It's funny (well, not really) because I do all these things to lift my spirits yet I still feel nothing. I did indoor cycling and hot yoga yesterday and indoor cycling again today and I have no endorphin high. I just go through it and then trudge home wondering why the heck am I not feeling happy lol. My doctor said it's normal because I'm not really processing what I'm going through and all this exercise and meditating is just a way to distract myself.

Objectively, I know what to do, I know what to feel but I can't bring myself to feel it. I'll feel ~up~ while doing certain things, like playing video games but after that-- nothing.

I even saw my guy today (he was the one who set up the appointment and even paid for it) and we chatted and he waited 'til the session was done and accompanied me to eat afterwards and I didn't feel joy. It was nice to have him there but my emotions were flat and I was scared to feel happy or sad or angry.

Tonight at cycling, the instructor told the class to reach in and look for that fire inside us, the one that motivates and excites us and I almost cried (had to scream to stop myself, good thing the music was super loud) because it hit me that I had none haha.

Thank you for reading.

That fire inside us thing . . . I've been battling this for some time now. It comes and goes. It's still there, but yeah, sometimes I also cry. I got tendonitis when I was 19 and had to stop drumming, which was my passion. It still flares up. I've had to sit for years trying other things to perfect, but the fire has been pretty well beaten out of me by needing to work and earn money with PTSD and depression, having shitty friends, family stabbing me in the back, not being able to do what I love, my father killing himself, etc. I could name a thousand things.

I discovered LoA. Then I discovered I have to feel good to attract anything. Then I realized it's not so easy for me.

Then I tried helping people to get good karma and feel better myself. Then I was mentally beaten up by 8 strangers on an LoA forum for months on end while trying to feel good... all while posting brilliantly (doesn't matter because no one ever gave a **** about my posts and still don't).

Then I realized I can't ever feel good consistently enough to have real lasting success. I can only get temporary success that shortly gets swept under the rug forever no matter how hard I try, no matter how good I feel, no matter what I do for other people, no matter how good of a person I am.


So, I can't help. I can tell you what to do to get something specific, and it will work, but you have to feel good consistently, which is something I can't do myself.

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I know a few people who think so. Everyone else doesn't give a ****.

I'm basically just giving up with everything. I started Pam Grout's first experiment and I'll see what happens. I'm not even trying to help you. I'm just typing because this feels better right now. I hate my life. I hate what I have attracted. I hate how stupid I can be. I hate what I've had to experience on these websites. I hate that no one gives a flying **** about me. I hate pretty much everything. I hate people. I hate how I'm not very welcome here anymore even though I RAISED the vibration of this place when I came here. I hate how moderators treat me like chopped liver. I hate how loa forumers treat me like chopped liver. I hate how my harassers never have seen any recourse for their actions. I how how sick it makes me feel. I hate how great things could have been. I hate how great things could be if I could just feel good because I can't. I can't do it enough.

This is fine. I might as well say this because I'll keep attracting I anyway.

Good luck or whatever. I don't know.
 

Iamthatiam wrote:

I have suffered with depression it comes and goes got really bad in January this year, and I went into crisis mode I was prescribed anti-depressants and to be honest it has been the best decision I have made. It put me in that right frame of mind, I also then started to really focus on LOA and it has honestly helped me so much. I work in the mental health field and it's awful when it takes over your life, my advice to you would be to try them they take a few weeks to kick in but honestly do help, focus on LOA put yourself first, I see it as a way of my body telling me to slow down and take care of my well being

I really do need to give those mood stabilizers a try, huh?

I don't understand why I can't feel happiness anymore. I'm always down and if I'm not down, I feel nothing. It's not nice