veggiepizzaforever wrote:

And this one aspect of my life that isn't going so well? Well, it's not gonna last long.

Focus on things that make you happy. Self-improvement should be your goal right now, not reconcilation with your guy.

That is so true! And I've been so good for months now and only just recently have I slipped completely backwards. I'm not sure what made me slip backwards but I can see that because I've been so needy, he has not been responsive. I was not needy towards him, but I felt needy and I guess that caused the universe to pull back until I am again ready. When I left him alone for a week and focused on myself, he initiated contact with me. I guess, as long as I am okay, the universe will give me what I want. I am going to give myself a week to just clear my energy and focus on work. Week by week I guess <3

Well, my love and I were together for 2 years and we broke up for the first time during July last year because he had depression. He did not want to break up with me but his therapist thought it was best, he was crying on the phone and it was quite messy but I let go of him. I was a mess and then I bounced back and was determined to get over everything. He came back, a couple of weeks later because we kept seeing each other out at the same bars. He then begged for me to come back and so we got back together. 

A month later we broke up again because there was too much pain from the last breakup so we decided to part ways. It was still painful. We had a small fight after our break up and I think he still really cares. He hasnt rebounded with anyone, he has not been interested in other girls and he still gets jealous about me with other guys. He has told my friends that he's over me but his actions say differently. 

So right now, I've been trying to talk to him to try and attract him back. However, this is not working out well... it made me needy so I am no doing no contact for a week. 

I think he's doing better now. I really could never dream of wishing ill upon him because he really did love me and I think that's the part that kills everyone the most. They love you but they aren't around...BUT! There's always that hope. I guess he came back once, he can come back again. I'm sending him love, I'm sending him thoughts of us being together and really trying to amplify this. I'm praying upon a new relationship that serves my purpose, hopefully with him I hope.

I guess we all miss our loves time to time. It's just a feeling we need to accept, as is sadness. I'm trying to go with the flow more.