My love and I are doing fine, but I became anxious again about other things. I really don't want it to effect our relationship. To make a long story short my mom told me she wants to pack my things and leave this house this week. I don't have enough money nor a place to stay. Honestly, it's because I haven't been productive at home and she calls me lazy. As well as saying I only care about myself.

If I cared about myself I would never be in the messes that I have been in and much more happier with my life. Also, I am not lazy, I just feel like I will always work in a minimum wage job and never go anywhere. But I want to go back to school to study small business/ Entrepreneurship. But my mom won't support me with school since I messed up the first time and I have to wait till I am twenty four to do it on my own.

I really don't want to go to a shelter. I really want to find my confidence and be productive at home, but how?