Yesterday was the one year anniversary of when I first matched with my guy on Tinder and we first started talking. I know time doesn't matter, but for some reason one year anniversaries get to me. Especially because we're now not talking.

I told myself I'd just let the emotions happen, but I wouldn't dwell. And I did a really good job of that yesterday. I didn't get too hung up on the regret and sadness like I thought I would. It still stung and I still had some hard moments, but overall it wasn't too bad.

I thought about going back and looking at our first conversation (because at least I'd be reminding myself of the good parts of our relationship), but I ended up not doing that. I figured I want something NEW with him, something better. So why go back and dwell on the old? It was good in the beginning, but there was still negative aspects to our relationship (his job, his lack of communication, etc.). I don't need to focus on that.

Now I need to focus on the relationship we're going to have that will be even BETTER than the one we had last year.

One year anniversaries can be hard, but they don't have to be. Next week will be the one year anniversary of our first date, when we first met in person and hit it off and had such a strong connection and he said all those kind words to me. I know there will be some emotions, but I won't let them paralyze me like before.