Ayutsu wrote:

So I've already attracted an ex back. I mean I believed he loved me and he finally confessed that. I'll never see him again and that's fine.

New guy. The problem here is that I have trouble believing he cares at all or ever did. Our relationship was very weird. He always held back and went hot and cold all the time. After every parting, I'd ask upon his return to just be honest with me and he'd always apologize "i'm sorry i'm like this, i do like you, let's try again". And it would crumble again very quickly.

I love him but I'm not in love with him yet. There were times when I could see it but it would damper as soon as things went shitty.

What I'm thinking about today in my hormonal weepy state is that I always believed that our relationship was all wrong. Like we were struggling to get to the starting line and never quite making it. Or like we stumbled onto the wrong timeline. That there is something to us that isn't over, that being apart is so wrong and that if we could just get to this starting line, everything would be amazing. And I can't shake it. So how do I believe that feeling? How do I know that's it's not my bruised ego, trying to deny that he just wasn't into me. There have been other guys, guys that have walked away without a word and I don't care.
But this guy. Things were bad way more often than they were good, but I can't shake this feeling.

I've been blocked for over a month. I can contact him via other means. And he knows that. He walked straight into a new relationship and he says and does things that he never did with me "because he's not like that" according to him. Ugh, I just don't know. I feel like I'm wasting time on someone who never cared in the first place and then this feeling comes over me telling me not to let this go.

I agree with Shooting Star   but I will also add    you attracted an ex  but you will never see him again   maybe deep in you   there is still a part of you holding onto him   nothing wrong with that   we don't choose who we love     but that would cause a conflict in your vibration     do you ever compare the new with the old?  ever wish he were more like the other ?    just a thought  it would cause enough vibrational confusion to block the new  from attaching   by the old deflecting   I did that  and it caused me nothing but misery

Whatever is in your reality now is the result of your past thoughts, worries, fears, anxiety.

KNOW that TODAY, you have the opportunity to create your future.

What does this mean?

It means whatever is going on now doesn't matter.

You need to do visualizations. Visualize your desired outcome for 1-5 minutes per session, 3x a day. This is the fasted way to reverse the situation as long as you have the patience to visualize. 

Last edited by Vera (1/15/2016 11:30 am)