i am very sorry that you are in this situation, but i can see through your lines that you are not ready for LOA. It is hard i know but you must be stable. My ex broke with me 2 months ago and i need about 6 weeks to become emotional stable. i dont really have some advice, but i can tell you what helped me to become stabile. First i take 2 short vacation. Then i talk about that with a pearson who actualy support me in this situation. A girl who become my very good friend and it was in similar situation. She dont know LOA. She told me that everything it happened with a reason, you just must find that reason. I found reason when i read a few LOA book. My reason it is that i must become better person. I was good person with few mistake, but my purpose in my life is to be better. So my advice it is find your reason, look for something what it is not connect with your relationship. What it is connect only with you, your inner you. Start there. Be gratefull for what you have. I am sure that you can find 100+ things for which you can be gratefull.

I hope that i give you some direction for start. And i wish you all the best :D We are here for you.

Take each day at a time. Don't hope for something or let yourself get caught up in thinking about a loss.
Write down some affirmations that are just about you. I'm strong, I'm happy, I know how to attract happy thoughts into my mind. Etc. And say them to yourself constantly so it sets into your unconscious mind.
The key is to focus on you, and only you now. When you feel yourself getting thoughts about him think about yourself. Plan something you want to do for yourself and focus on that. Keep busy doing things you enjoy and spend as much time as possible with people who make you happy. Do not contact him, and if he contacts you be polite and brief.
The universe knows what you want. Now you need to be happy and be the best you can be for yourself. Letting go takes time but it comes only when you are not desperate, when you realise that you are responsible for your own happiness.
Love him, and know that letting go you will be happy again. So many stories prove you get what you desire eventually. Recently the LOA has been proven to me with many things, and it can't all be coincidence. You will get there if you focus on you and being happy for yourself.

Hey there.

It took me 3 weeks to get out of my depressed rut. Over a week of raising my vibrations and now, I'm back to feeling emotionally and physically heavy. And it's okay.

I've been meditating and part of the process is your subconscious releasing negative emotions. It's necessary for your healing. I am going through this right now and it's really heavy. I'm allowing myself a few days to feel this way and figure things out because I can't just brush these things under the rug. I can ignore it and be all LOA! HAPPY! JOYFUL! but that would be me being dishonest with myself.