Leli exactly, we have to keep reminding ourselves

I just read in the book that most of our thoughts repeat each and every day, the same thoughts, so it takes time before we change those thoughts

the feeling of love and power, fulfillment is in each of us already, they just help us to realize that

so if we want to feel it again, we just tune to that feelings and we are there

i sometimes go back in my mind to the "past" reality (we know there is no past really) where he was so much in love with me, that he was jealous of me, possesive, would do anything to please me, and i just feel like i was there again, what would i feel? i d feel amazing, sparkling, joyful, in my power, loving and very very loved and when i get to that feeling ( which i can do when i focus on that) then its like i was living it again and it feels great

so sometimes we can travel to our past to connect to our awesome future, as what matters is only our now, so if it helps us feel good and powerful, loved and full of this beautiful radiance that is what matters and what brings them back or lets say what brings us to our prefered reality :-)

if you have the urge then its usually wrong and the feeling which you get after that ( feeling I screwed up) just showed it wasnt really right to do

if you act from the place of inner guidance, the urge doesnt feel like urge but like intuition, its light and when you send a message at that place, then you feel very light about it, and you dont care if you get some answer or what answer and that was the right thing to do

i had that before when it felt like inspiration, i felt like drawn to do it but at the same time it felt light like if some higher power was just leading me, i did it so fast and when i did, i felt relief and calm and then he replied in a very fast and good way

when i did it like from urge, feeling like i have to, cant help it then after sending that i felt like i will faint and then it was wrong and i got very anxious

I think its something you have to observe and learn by trying and doing mistakes
that is how i learnt that and am still learning

i dont have a specific answer to that

its true that the line between the urge and intuition is very thin

i try to listen to my body a lot so the other day i wanted to buy a program which meant money i dont really have now, or i do but shouldnt spend it

i tried to feel in advance what it will feel like if i buy that knowing the money i gone and maybe wasted and also if i dont buy it at all

when feeling i will not buy it i felt really stomach ache, didnt feel comfortable in that feeling while if i did the opposite like i am buying that i felt relief but mainly like feeling calm in my body and excited at the same time, like its the right decision

finally i didnt buy it so told myself it was right to do it

funnily after week of the gate closed to that, they reopened and i felt like it is a sign, then i felt like drawn to it but not feeling urge like jumping or cant live without it just like slight pull, i bought it yesterday and so far its great and i feel very positive

so maybe start to use ur intuition in other areas so you train yourself how to recognize if its just ego urging you to do something or if its inspired action

i hope it helps a bit :-)

Last edited by happygirl (1/10/2016 9:56 am)

I agree with you Leli and it is my own experience, even if my guy was always the one who initiated contact, he basically didnt say more then I miss you and I was all happy and again lost my energy in that, which taught me one thing - I am amazing woman and I deserve man who knows my value and my  inner beauty and who would do anything for being with me

so from now I dont take any excuses or just missing you as a reason to even reply, it maybe the strategy many people will say its not good to ignore him

but from my past relationship experience and knowing he would climb mountains at the beginning of our relationship, now i dont only initiate contact, i even am at the point that i have to hear something really amazing like i want you back baby otherwise am not ready to even bother replying

for me its been already two years and I realized thanks to me being happy each time i got tiny message saying nothing major i taught him that i am here any time he wants and that gave him strength and at the same time he has no reason to come back or really want me

so now i just put focus on me and my uniqueness and that is it

i dont believe he will come back fully unless he realizes i have moved on and am fully happy without him and some one time message every few months is not what i want

so i set my new intention - either he will come fully or not, who cares, i am over 30 girl, wanting family, kids, happiness, am not gonna play energy games forever

and so i just try to feel how i felt when we met and as Veronica suggested just get back to that feeling - which was I didnt care really if he texts me or not, as he was the one crazy about me, i even didnt love him for a long time when we started, i was full of joy, sparkle, radiated enthusiasm and was carefree and that is what i am tuning to now

and i sort of know he will come back eventually but if not i will know already how to feel great and i will be in love with my life, so maybe some other guy will appear who knows

i even stopped wanting some one message from him or one tiny little thing, dont have a clue how the whole package could come to me, but that is not my business anyway, my business is only to feel awesome and great and that is what i am doing :-)
the rest Universe will do, I am sure of it

I see only the end result and even when seeing that I focus on my feelings more then on him or what he does in that dream