My family is all about money, they wanted me to be with someone with money, they wanted me to chase money, everything was money. But I always felt disconnected with that idea. It's not about the money, it's about where that money gets you, I have come to realize. I am in love with someone who is not making big money currently, but believe he will eventually.

He wants to make lots of money eventually and I believe that he can. At first I was upset because I thought I was in the way of his dreams. But I believe now that we can live our dreams together. He has good plans, but I need to guide his state of being. Teach him to be positive.

Back to my family who partly doesn't approve of my darling because they say getting involved with him is due to all my failures. But in truth it was all me feeling like I won't get anywhere. Now I have beggars coming to me to help them with money. They are nice people, but I need to drop the word no on them sometimes when they get too comfortable.

I want to be able to inspire these women to break out of their misfortunes. My family doesn't really understand the whole money thing. They say if I can't make it big here in NY, I can't make it anywhere. I disagree and plan to leave the city in the future. The only thing that bothers me is how my family has dreams for me.

They want me with all this money, with someone who is not my darling and to live big. Yeah, I want to live big, but I want to be happy. Money cannot buy happiness. I want to be able to enjoy my life, have the career I want, be with my darling who is so wonderful and great, have an infinite abundance of opportunities.

Today I found a dollar because I believe I attract money now. But I want my family more than anything to see that what I am saying about the life I want is what they want. But I will also be happy in this one. I thought about all this after I passed out from exhaustion and hunger. Much love, Rosaline. 💟🌈