now he gets on ok cupid everyday .....my thoughts are going to places i dont want to go 

I'm definitely getting the vibe of desperation/fear/panic from your posts which is definitely not good for attracting anything into your life right now, I suggest you do a 30 minutes chill out, with a bath, music, maybe watch a funny tv show, just think 'this too shall pass' and there's nothing you can do while being in your mindset. Don't text him again, seriously, stop it haha. After you chill out, write down somewhere everything you're grateful for in your life, even something like having good health or having enough food to eat, small things. Slowly but surely you'll get back into the mindset where you might be able to attract him back in 

oh and start seeing yourself as attractive too you seem really low, like threatened by randoms on ok cupid like really, you have enough to offer him, but you have to remember that and bring that out in you. Don't feel threatened, do your hair up or try on some nice clothes and maybe even take a selfie just for yourself or maybe put it on facebook, dance around to some music that makes you feel good, you have to start feeling like a goddess again because then you'll probably just laugh at the fact he goes on ok cupid and think that when he next sees you, he'll never bother going on there again ...

Confused, you are full of panic and desperation and you need to understand you will ONLY attract those things by being like that. You are not in the place to attract him back right now, and you need to work on yourself and getting your vibrations back up gradually.

ShootingStar is giving good advice – you need to center yourself, take a few deep breaths, and let yourself know that everything's going to be OK, because it is.