MorganRose wrote:

How strange. I first read about twin flames in the middle of 2014 and a thought flashed in my mind that Austin was my twin but I dismissed it. But every so often after that I'd remember it. On dates etc I'll just think, Austin is my soulmate, my twin, although I had completely moved on from him and hundreds of miles away. I stopped seeing him in person for a year. Yet, that connection never faded. I could still feel him undeniably. I never asked if he could feel me too, but he always knew what I was thinking. I didn't have to speak, he would look at me and know and it's been that way from the start.

I saw him in my dream before I knew he existed. Then one day, this girl tagged him in a status. I went and looked at his fb. I thought he was familiar to me and I wanted him so I added him. I forgot about that and dated someone else but a few months later he happened to be awake at 5 am when I was online. He messaged me and we were inseparable ever since. He told me I was what he'd been looking for for so long, that I took him from the rut he was in, and that he knew I was something special, that we had a special connection.

Even after he spiraled into drug use and disappeared during my pregnancy, I could feel him. I'd reach out to him and he'd confirm what I thought. I knew when he was using because I could feel it. I'm still, to this day, the only person he's ever told that he's done that. Everyone knew he was doing something when he was gone but I'm the only one he told point blank about it because he trusted me. He is so secretive but never with me because he loves me. He's clean and sober now, no worries. He has been for quite a while and I'm proud of him.

Anyway, I just realized the other night when we skyped and he looked at me that the connection is still there and isn't normal. This is something more. We probably are twin souls and our son is in our soul group because Austin and I both dreamt about Ashton before I got pregnant. And after we found out we instinctually said "he" although we didn't know the sex and we also saw what he looked like in our dreams.

Morgan, my dear Morgan you should never ever have to worry anymore. You and Austin share a connection deeper than many of us here could dream of. It's hard being inlove with someone who is anot addict. Their spirit is in so much turmoil and from whathe I am understanding (the little I know or sense) it's basically a matter of waiting on him to get his life in order. There is no denying that you guys share something emotionally and physically (your son) and no person, no thing, not drug could ever take that place. Soon my dear, it's all gonna work out.

I feel him strongly again today. It hit me as soon as I woke up this morning. It's odd, but it makes me feel but it made me let go of him even more, knowing that he's thinking of me. Plus after I wrote out some of our story up there I realize that he has to heal a lot from his past before we come back together.

Berryluv wrote:

I was thinking the same thing too Morgan, you have already done your part, now it's time for him to heal.

 
I was so desperate for reconciliation that I wasn't understanding the reasons we weren't together was not because of me or our connection. I have him, pretty much, but he just needs to work on himself and I should work on myself. I think this journey is still a beautiful one. Who knows, in a few months he could be the Austin I met again. He's close to that now. He's done a really good job with getting himself together the past few months.

Sorry if this thread has suddenly gotten disappointing for those that found my journey inspiring, but I have to do what's best for Austin right now and that could be to leave him to himself. But reattracting someone absolutely works. He was in a relationship and not speaking to me and after I started this he left her and began getting close to me again and missing me. The only reason I'm stopping is because his mental and physical health is more important to me than my needs.

We all have to do what's best for ourselves and the people we love. I read your journey the other day when I first signed up and I know that you and Austin will be back together when you are both ready! Like you, I was desperate for reconciliation and hounded and begged my guy back. It took a breakdown for me to realize that we both needed to work on ourselves first.

It's all part of the journey. <3

http://www.twinflamesoulmates.com/signs-of-the-twinflame-soul-dynamic.html

Literally all of these are Austin and I. Google suggested the website to me. So cool. ❤️

Anyway, I'm feeling really good. I visit my family in a few days. I get to meet my niece that was born right before Christmas and I'm really excited!