So it's a new year, time to really enjoy life this year as this is what I want to do. I was a bit up and down these past few days, but I had a self talk with my heart about where my guilt with my darling lied.

One of the things was keeping secrets from him. So my heart said instead of committing an action that will cause me to want to keep it from him, approach him about it first so that I won't feel wrong about doing it. (Apparently a lot of my actions that I kept secret weren't even as bad as I was making it seem. If I would have told him about it he would have been fine.)

Another thing was feeling insecure with him around my best friend. Apparently, this had nothing more than to do with forming a bad habit of him being around another female in general. That was the first thing my heart told me to recognise.

It's not so much I do not trust him, I just got into the habit of being insecure with him around another female. Another thing my heart said is to be grateful my best friend will never consider dating him, so I shouldn't worry on her end either.

Final thing is having a bad habit of being in denial and not apologising. My heart said that I should always admit my wrongs and apologise. Then accept that mistake and correct it since that is part of being human.

Now onto my focus, I made ten steps to do to build my relationship for this year. The first step is to bond with my love. I will give myself thirty days to complete this, so I won't feel rushed. Now that I forgive myself, this energy will be sent to him and from this point we can both move forward and start to bond again. I will post daily on my progress with my first step. Much love, Rosaline. 💟🌈 (I want to make my middle name my first name.)

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