confused1077 wrote:

I don't want rest though I just want this to happen and now I just feel hopeless. I'm emotionally and physically drained. I don't want to do anymore work. I feel like I have done a lot and I deserve for all my wants to manifest. I mean how is it people who don't know the law and are awful people manifest everything they want. I m just tired and no a good nights sleep won't fix it I need more then that. I need to be knocked out for months or something because I cannot and do not have the energy to just switch my mind and emotions again for the 200th time...

Lovely, you will get him back, maybe not right in this exact moment and that's okay. You don't really need him, you just want him. Even when he's back, the only reason you'll really feel better is the thoughts you'll have changed - so just change them now and your ex will come back. You don't have to do any 'work', just reach for better feeling thoughts and know the Universe has your back. Please relax just a bit, you're worrying yourself and stressing yourself out. 2016 is still going to be a good year, don't let a little bump like this get in the way. People who don't know the law just know and expect things to work out for them and go their way - they know and believe and aren't attached. 

You're fighting this too hard so anything I might say at this moment may not appeal to you, which is understandable. Right now you have a bit of resistance and opposition, but truly, you need to let it go. You're holding on to hard to him and if you just let go, even a bit, it would feel a lot better. Try thinking of something else that tends to make you happier that isn't related to him or a future with him in this moment. Perhaps a favorite movie or a funny comedy sketch. You have the energy to change your emotions in an instance, but you're just disallowing yourself in this moment. Seriously, get some sleep and forget about this. He's just a person, really. You can make yourself feel all the ways you want him to. Put yourself on a pedestal and take care of yourself and let him go for now. 

When everyone saids let go of him for now it makes me feel like that he and I will never be together again and that I am just suppose to never speak to him again and that we will forget each other and move on. That is something I do not want and I feel like the whole letting go thing is going to push me to somewhere without him. Like not to what I want if that makes sense.

Hi
It's the opposite. Letting go does not mean he will dissapear, you will find it will work wonders, however trying to control and force the situation may send him furthur away.

Also what about what my friends think of me now.....I love him so much. And this month especially seemed special. He would tell me he loves me and it was more then once. Tuesday though he was so sweet with the questions to fall in love. And he told me out past relationship was the past he didn't want to focus on that. He seemed to want to focus on us now. I just thought I got this strong vibe that he wants me....in some sense some I still do but I keep telling myself I'm crazy or I'm in denial with what happened yesterday. Probably denial.

Vera wrote:

You need rest tonight and have some balance in your emotions. There's nothing to do right now except rest. 

Right now, the only barrier to your desire is you. You said so yourself, "I don't believe it will be."

Faith requires confidence in your ability to manifest your desire. Without confidence, there's no faith. 

If you really want to get your ex back, be disciplined in your words and your thoughts. Also focus on yourself: have a clean diet, avoid alcohol, practice daily gratitude, and visualize your desired outcome every single day.

If you have been doing this for a long time, you obviously know the techniques. 

Lastly, stop all contact with your ex. Let him come to you.  

Vera   very well said !    Confused   please take time  to center yourself       you need to approach your situation with a clear mind     and believe !   without  TRUE belief  coming from the core of your soul  nothing will happen       Vera is absolutely correct   let him contact you   with respect and dignity     learn to LOVE YOURSELF     no one can love you until you feel love and joy with just being you.    It takes hard work Confused to get out of the pit of despair  but once you do   and you begin to feel love and joy   you WILL see changes and miracles in your life