I have been keeping  very positive mindset from last 2 weeks , Infact on his bday he even texed me , he appreciated my wishes . This 25th he even  had send Christmas wishes , I am happy and every where I could also notice some signs which ussed to remind me of adu I have taken it as an indication by universe that he is on his way and coming .. but then last night he kept dp with his best friend .. who he might be even datting .. adu is a guy who has never kept dp with any gal .. but viewing this close cozy  dp has given me a major shock , bcos of NC I don't have proper update about him and nor do I try to stock him .. but this dp randomly popped up and even after being calm still effected me ..  I am trying to divert my self from this old reality but then somehow it's all over my mind .. I even had dicided to not write or discribe this thing anywhere but then couldn't resist as I badly needed to share and also wanted some kind of help to deal with this situation .