Know that you're ******* awesome no matter what. Do some affirmations stating that in the mirror. That always helps me. No matter what his answer is, you'll still be awesome. He's going to say yes though. ;)

Why do my nerves get in a knot when I think about this man. Goodness gracious, this man gives me butterflies when I'm around him or think of him. He's soo gorgeous. He's 6'4.. thick, muscular, handsome. Such a gentleman, very shy, very conservative. I've know him since elementary school and he was one of those geeks that grew up to be drop dead amazing. I still haven't contacted him to invite him yet. Ughh

Thank you guys. You are all right, he's just another person like anybody else and there is no reason for him to say now. I am the only one who is blocking myself from my current reality to the reality I desire.

I did eventually speak to him and he said he was spending the day with his mother and he wouldn't be able to make it, but he did promise to spend some time with me before the year is over. So I'm happy for that.

And I ended up going out with my friends and had a blast. Saw so many people from childhood days. Lots of cute eligible bachelor's out there! I had so much fun being in the receiving mode lastnight.