What I did is I basically turned it into an opportunity and a game, I planned that evening like that few days ago. I told myself I will write down all I have manifested this year and also all I want next year and on Xmas eve I will do it as a game and pretend its 2016 and I have all I want already and my guy is showering me with amazing gifts and word of love and attention

You are so sweet everyone! The mind is working in such a stupid way, you know what and how to do stuff bur still it signals the opposite.
Well said, that we are all brave, that is very true.
You made me stop crying, thank you all and have a Happy Christmas!

I hope you beautiful people cheer up. You all deserve to have a smile on your face, especially knowing next Christmas who will be celebrating right beside you. ❤️

I am trying to think positive right now. Even though my love may not be with me this Christmas, I may have an opportunity to see him tomorrow if he is free to drive me home (since he offered). Even if that doesn't happen, I still get to spend Christmas with my family and have fun. My cousin is on her way to pick me up right now!

I hope everyone can find a way to be happy today!

I did some focus wheels and they really helped me. I am feeling much better now. 

As I was doing my focus wheels, I realised this: Many things I have now, used to be my old wishes. So, they came true. Back then, I believed that I was unhappy because I didn't have these things. Now, I have them but I am unhappy because I don't have the things I want now. 

So, I realised that this is a big trap. We always need something to be happy. We say "when this happens, I will be happy". And it is a big lie. Because we know that we will find something again to feel unhappy. 
What we want is nothing but goals. We have some goals. What has this to do with happiness?
We will always have goals. Always. It never stops. Even if tomorrow our wishes come true, then we will have new goals/wishes. They never stop. Does it mean that we will always be unhappy and miserable?

As long as we are alive, we have goals and wishes. This has to give us life and joy. We should be happy just becuase we exist. Appart from our goals. It is a journey and a job that never stops. Separate happiness from goals/progress. We are happy because. And we keep on.  

Last edited by Milk&Honey (12/24/2015 7:27 pm)