Today is day 2 in the morning.
Is it weird that I’m afraid of him coming back?
Its like my fantasies of him are better than what the reality was. I’m afraid that the reality will be disappointing.

At this stage, ask yourself is it the person in question that you desire, or a relationship like you're picturing in general.

Hi! Thanks for your response,
Today is day 4.
That’s a good question, I really had to think about it. I guess I don’t really know him THAT well. I wish I did. Anything can go wrong. We dated briefly. In the past it takes me years to like someone even though I date often. So when I find someone I like I don’t want to let them go. So to answer the question,  I want him. But truthfully I’d be happy with anyone who I can have a mutually satisfying relationship with.

Day 23.
The holidays with lots of traveling and parties, and getting a bit sick did make some of the exercises difficult to do but I’ve been doing my best. Pretty good actually.
Still no word from him. I really wanted to report good news here. Especially with the new year I thought it would be the perfect time for him to send me a happy new year text.
Anyway, kind of a funny story, I wanted to get someone’s opinion of: last night I went out  and shared and Uber home with a male friend. That I have no interest in. He started getting really emotional about some girl he likes and he was sad that she had not texted HIM happy new year! I said to him “are you crazy you are the man you need to text her! Maybe she’s waiting for that text from you” And he said “oh yeah” and I’m not sure if he texted her not but then I started thinking what if my ex wants me to text him? And he’s hurt because I’m not texting him. What do you guys think?