I always wanted to be with Darrel. Darrel is the one whom I connected to, whom I share ideals and beliefs with, whom I can shamelessly be myself with. He makes me smile and really really really happy. He gets it though, I don't depend on him to be happy. All he wants is for me to appreciate myself, be myself and be happy with myself. He calls me perfect all the time despite my flaws, he doesn't see them as flaws. We always had feelings for each other, for years. But for me the distance is what was stopping me. I live in New York, he in Florida. But he didn't mind the distance, he was willing to be with me regardless.

But while I was working on myself, I decided to just give it a shot. We dated before when we were younger, but the distance caused me to leave. But I am older and more ready for this. He told me he is supposed to be moving to North Carolina with his family and if they don't find a place, they will be moving back to New York, since this is where he was originally from. We both were so happy about this possibility, I felt like this opportunity was coming from the Universe.

Now I can see a difference in how I am with him vs. my ex. With him I am more open and not afraid to tell him anything. I speak my mind and am just myself as he loves me. I love him so much for being the honest type that would tell people what they need to hear rather than what they want to hear. Last night we were speaking on the phone and he fell asleep, I noted of hanging up I fell asleep with him until he woke up and called out to me. My relationship with him is so much different, even in how I treat him. It's just that I have always loved him. Don't get me wrong, I love my ex too, just not the same way that I love him.

Hello everyone, you hanging in there okay? I know that I have, while working on rediscovering myself. Many see me as naive and fragile. *giggles* Funny because I am the exact opposite, an ongoing flame that keeps on going. So I have been just relaxing, doing my thing which is so much fun. I feel prettier lately and that is only because I appreciate myself more. Still going strong as a vegan, I love the food that I eat. So satisfying.

I got around to playing Tomb Raider which I love so much. Been interested in learning archery and self defense. I go meditating in the park to really hear my inner voice. My it has been so thrilling and a friend showed me this make up website which have beautiful make up that I want to get, and it is very affordable. I rediscovered how eccentric I truly am. No, you don't like everything different from everyone to be eccentric. You can like the same things and still make it your own thing.

Guys you don't understand how much more powerful I feel lately. Only one person figured me out thus far, that my "innocence" is a cover up to hide the true warrior I am inside. I will keep on moving forward and continue living my life. It is simple, all you have to do is appreciate what you already have and whatever else you desire will be on it's way. To live the life you want, you have to start right now. I am currently reading this book called love and sexuality. Very powerful book and really opened my eyes more about accepting love and loving unconditionally. Now let's all march forward and unity and stop this war!!!

Your higher self revealed that dream to you. You should try asking your higher self questions before going to bed more often. I asked my higher self a question about what to do to move forward and there was a clear conversation in my dream where she said I need to let go of fears and negative thoughts. But your spirit can knows what is best for you always as spirit literally responds to vibrational frequencies around you.

ShootingStar wrote:

But the one thing I learnt, because I went through a very similar experience to you...got him back from a girl and lost him to another....is that actually, he's the one who's not in alignment with HIMSELF. He's looking for love in all the wrong places. It's impossible to just switch around from person to person and be totally whole inside. Whole people can't do that, after relationships, they need to time to get over the emotions until they can move on. Sometimes people do get over their partners while they are still with them, but if he only came back to you recently, then he didn't have time to fall in and out of love with you. He's all over the place in himself and he's not being real with himself. One day that will all come crashing down for him when he wakes up next to a girl and realises how he never had time for himself to be the man he wanted to be, he was too busy getting girls to love him to love himself. I used to hop from boy to boy until I realised it drained me and I couldn't do it anymore. At the end of it all, you're going to come out stronger and more secure and better than him

From my understanding we have multitudes of twin flames and they do not always have to be romantic either. They are there to help shape you, now I have experienced other men in healing time, but it still does not compare to how I feel for him.

I agree that he doesn't love the girl he is with. He said he fears she will just leave him soon, which should tell him something, but his mind is still closed. When he described his feelings for the girl, I flashed into my mind. My friend told me that is because he is seeking me into this other girl. Now all the spiritual teachers I follow believe in loan and they always say to watch your thoughts.

Funny thing, I was very lovable in the beginning. I believed in myself and him. I was confident and no one can bring me down. My family was the one drilling fears in my mind, talking about their own experienc

So spirit has helped me out with something. If I have anxiety about anything because at this point I have no relations with anybody, I just tell myself love did not create that, so it is not real. I am also going to start my gratitude journal again. I just want to feel whole in myself because I was always out of alignment with ME. I have a gift, and that gift involves being my happy free spirited self again . So I will do just that, my love is still there for all. I know I will get through this.