Way to go keep up the surrendering/getting out of your own way. It really does wonders.

Okay now accept what is. Don't try to fight against it by shifting realities. You're only suppressing your resistance by doing that. Become okay with all that you just said. This is part of letting go.

I was at a low point last weekend. Nothing seemed to be "working" I cursed her name I got angry and pissed off. I knew I needed to allow these emotions to flow through me. I cried and I felt like utter ****. I doubted the whole process and I cursed myself for even wanting the desire in the first place. I allowed all of that. I just sat there and stayed like that for as long as I felt like it. You know what happened a couple hours later? I felt an incredible calm and peace flow through me. I felt the belief and positivity once again.I didn't have to try to shift to it it just came to me because I let go of all that I was trying to suppress.

Allow yourself to feel. This scenario is meant for you to clean out some of the muck in your vibration and the only way to achieve that is to allow it.

You could message me. I'm not answer but I've learned a lot.

Exactly what sanshi said. It didn't make me feel good to look at it. I looked into my imagination instead. All realities are equally valid. Meaning the one I was living in my mind is just as valid as the one playing out. I just started giving that one more attention and the current one less and less. Now the current reality has no effect on my vibe. Every day I wake up I make it my intention to think thoughts that make me feel good. Now I can sense when a path of thought will make me feel bad before I even start thinking about it. You can too with practice.

My love works in the same place too. Think about what you appreciate about her. You feel bad because you're focusing on what you don't want. My stomach used to be in knots when she would come in. Now I'm just in peaceful bliss because I found my self appreciation.