you're all beautiful people! The only thing that is creating the fear is me! and I know I can overcome this innate fear and get him back into my life

So ex love and I are meeting up tomorrow and usually I would feel quite concerned and nervous! Don't get me wrong, I am quite nervous but I'm mostly calm and okay. I guess if the universe has allowed me to meet up with him, this is a good step forward! I have mixed vibes about tomorrow but am currently trying to increase my positive feelings by having a pamper session to boost my self esteem! I sent my ex a link to a video last night and usually he would reply, but he has seen the message and not replied... not sure if this is a bad sign because his communication with me has been a bit more detached than usual but this is a direct result of my fear and anxiety, causing resistance in him. I'm visualising a good time tomorrow with no awkward pauses and am really hoping that this meet up is the start of something BIG! 

Sending out good vibes to all out there! I came from a place of anxiety and still am occasionally but day by day, I've learnt to find happiness in life! Much love! xx

I know this is a really negative post and you guys are so uplifting and so supportive. When people tell you to move on, it really hits home and it really does make me feel like I should just give up. Ultimately it's my decision to keep fighting and in my heart I want to, but I am so tired of asking and praying and wanting. There's been signs of my love caring for me and being jealous but he will not take it further and develop it into another relationship.

I am meeting up with my love on Tuesday... I just want this to be the start of our rekindling. I really want this to start to work out in my favour. I've heard from my friends that he does not want a relationship with me. Am I to just trust that the universe will change my loves mind about me?

I am constantly full of doubt and this creates resistance. I just need to cleanse myself and my thoughts and am doing so day by day. It's truly so difficult..

That's so incredibly true, especially for me concerning my love. I guess I am incredible impatient because the universe gave my love back to me once before and I feel like it's time that the universe gave me what I want again - but ultimately that's up to the universe and not me!

Is there a correlation between dreams and LOA. I know the subconscious is always in the works and so when we dream, it projects thoughts at the back of your head. Specifically I had a dream about my love and he still loved me, but not enough. In my dream, he was too busy to be in a relationship - which is something I fear.

Is he unknowingly sending my thoughts? Or is it me doing this to myself..?