Only two or three times. I bought her books around Christmas. I once had a really good time with it and felt pretty aroused afterwards but it seemed like he avoids me even more after I do it? How often should I use this technique?

Thank you so much, Cynthia. It's so kind of you to write back to me. Especially as I get the whole concept but worked so hard against it these past days.

One of the main reasons why I broke up with him was also a trust issue. I felt like I couldn't rely on him entirely. We weren't living together and when we planned things for let's say Monday, he would come Thursday. When we arranged a date for 3pm he would come 5pm. He often promised things and I actually believe he wanted to do them but couldn't keep his promises. When really important things happened, he was there but the more time passed the less I trusted he would be a reliable father for example. But now I know I was too much focused on his minor flaws. Still, maybe I even felt second best back then sometimes.

Another reason for the split was I myself. I had a major anxiety disorder and I needed to sort this out by myself. He never forgave me that I cut him out from my life back then. He said so when we tried to rekindle our relationship in 2015/16 but he would also say that I hurt him so badly that this wounds need to heal.

And this is funny because he only started saying he probably couldn't forgive me when I started to feel ashamed because of the past. So, I might have made him think so with my thoughts? I actually believe so meanwhile. All these years he longed for me to come back no matter what and then when I felt so sorry he started to complain?

Today I wrote more miserable messages and blocked him on WhatsApp. It's totally ruined for the moment, but I'm also angry that he doesn't phone me. All these years he always called me when I wrote messages like that.

I think I should keep him blocked everywhere. After all, it will prevent me from writing more awful things at least. He knows I want him back although my behavior is more than horrible. Maybe I could unblock him for his birthday and send him an unpersonal "happy birthday".

It was the same for me. Last year he ignored my birthday and it was

Thank you, Cynthia!

I think I posted my story in the wrong section, I'm sorry for that.

Yesterday I tried RS on him - mainly with love - and it felt really good but soon after feelings of anger and disbelief took over. I did some self love meditations instead which calmed me greatly, so I will focuse on that instead. There are many things that need healing in me first.

My problem is that I need signs in the outer world sadly, so I persuaded myself yesterday that he must love me because of his behavior on the concert last September. Our contact was already awful but from the moment he saw me, he had only eyes for me. Sandy became absolutely furious with him for trying to talk to me and I, as I sad, ignored him (what I regret now), but he still kept trying to approach me, he did even run after me literally.

I decided to cut contact until I feel better or maybe he writes to me again. The only question I still have is: on February 19 is his birthday. So, in case I don't hear of him anymore (after all what happened now I can't expect it), should I wish him Happy Birthday or nothing?

Hello,

I've been more or less stuck in this situation for about one and a half years now and I've read so many LOA books, but I'm really confused now.

I try to cut this as short as possible. My specific person is my ex. We have been together from 2003-2013. It was me who ended the relationship. I moved on quickly or so I thought and a year after I tried to attract my true soulmate. I started doing hypnoses and meditations, wrote lists about the qualities I wanted in a mate etc. There was a part in the hypnoses where one should remember their happiest memories. At first I thought of my pets, several friends etc. but memories of my Ex would pop up more and more. I tried to surpress them as rubbish after all I had ended the relationship. But over the months I noticed more and more how I missed him everywhere, what he truly meant to me and that I may have taken him for granted.

One could argue that I just missed him and wanted him back because I didn't find another man. But that's not true, many new and wonderful guys showed up in my life. But they just made me realize: they're not like him.

He had always wanted me back, sent me messages over the years almost weekly that I should give him another chance. But I didn't want to confuse him or myself, so I remained cool. It was only in November 2015 where I gave in, I wasn't sure if I wanted him back as man, but certainly as a special friend. He agreed. We met regularly and he kept trying to seduce me but I wanted more time.

Then in summer 2016 I was sure I wanted him and... he disappeared! For 13 years we were, even while we were separated, always in contact and may it only be messages on FB. He just kept messaging me that he was busy and that was sorry for that. When we met for the last time in August 2016 he told me he had begun a relationship with a girl, I'll call her Sandy. He told me she meant nothing to him, that it was just a sexual relationship as I hadn't been sure about him and he had been alone for thre