I was meditating one time and I said youniverse send me someone new it was out of the hurt that I was feeling at the time. I started hanging out with them I had sex with them a couple times out of spite and hurt again When I first met them I liked them but I really don’t want them and I keep ceeing and getting is signs that my ex is where I ought to be I feel horrible and sick to my stomach as to what I should do it’s definitely a lesson to learn. I wanna continue being friends with them but that’s it. It’s lust and I’m sorry to myself for this but I guess I have to go through this

Omg omg omg I love you UNIVERSE it finally happened I ******* love you yo I’ve been working on myself and my career and iverything in my life and my love mi amor finally returns to me and we are happier than iver our love has grown stronger iverything is so beautiful more than what I asked for I promise to itinue with my affirmations and iverything I’ve been doing to itinue to create the best life for myself oh how I am so over joyed I can’t stop smiling I can’t wait to cee what else is in store for us and our beautiful healthy peaceful healed relationship thankh you so much thankh you so much universe youniverse

I feel like crying I miss my love so much. I'm trying to be strong. I've been focus on my self and loving myself and I feel like he's coming back the more I do that like a gut feeling. But right now I feel so low and sad and I'm trying and I know I will get out of this funk but I just needed to get that out and vent. I'm getting better and I know things are getting better and my love will return back to me in due time the universe shows me all the time.

What should I do in this situation? So background info me and my love known each other for about 2 years will be 3 after this month. We was together I a relationship the first year and half was gonna get married talked about building a family. We broke up due to space and my insecurities. We was still keeping in contact but it just seemed like iverything was going down hill. After months of back and forth and me work in on myself we came back together to start I've but had the most horrible fight due to my insecurities. I was hurt of course we stopped talking they wanted to be friends they ended up getting in a relationship so quick I thought and I was right cause that turned out to be horrible so they came running back to me I was there they was broken hurting and going through it.they expressed to me that they still wanted to be friends so we were but the love and connection was there so we agreed to just be natural with each other and let it happen but in our own way we was forcing it they was scared to be hurt again so the idea of a relationship just made them cringe and I was pushing for a relationsgip because I wanted to be that person that they desired and just give them all my love it ended up blowing up in our face my insecurities came back and we ended up having the same horrible argument I started again to focus on myself and love myself but something horrible happened we spoke and they had the person they was messing with answer the phone my heart dropped I couldn't believe it the disrespect after Iverything my love and i have been through and gotten through i still feel them and their love iven after that I know thats a little weird but i do and I still love them i also feel their pain because iverytime we have that horrible argument they run to someone else so quickly I want to ease their pak and be their peace of mind please help I need advice thankh you in advance i love you and God I know the universe got me I just know advice advice words of wisdom