I have a question, it is said that in order to influence subconscious, we have to feel the feelings of already having our desire. But i have noticed, when i go in theta state or a state just before sleep, i am able to imagine but unable to feel any feelings.
Few days back, when me and my lover stopped talking, i cried a lot as my mind was full of negative thoughts and i was unable to get them out. Then i made a decision that i will now forget that we had a relationship and his behavior of coming and going. After making a decision, i was feeling relieved. Then from next day, i told myself that i will only focus on what i want regarding relationship. I was able to get him out of my mind (specially negative). I felt it is ok if we are not talking. I felt like i don't need him. I think about him but no neediness, no negative thoughts. It's like i am loosing interest. From last few days, when i feel sleepy, i imagine that we both have weared a wedding ring which implies we are married. After imagining, i tell myself that i am his wife now and sleep in that state. But the problem is i am unable to feel any feelings in theta(state very near to sleep) state. And also i want to know... I was able to remove negative thoughts about him very easily, does it means i lost interest? And why am unable to feel feelings.
"Few days back, when i was frustated, i used to force the process like i used force imagination and forced affirmations but that was not removing any negative thoughts. Now, i imagine this scene at night and when i wake up, i don't feel the need to affirm. But i think i haven't reach the state of awareness about my desire. Because whenever i think about him, it feels that yeah, he exists but i don't feel married to him consciously."
I have 3 questions--
1) Am i loosing my feelings for him?
2) Why i am unable to feel any feeling in theta state?
3) Why i am not conscious of being married to him inspite of sending messages to subconscious? Is it because my subconscious has not yet believed.