I know exactly how you feel Morgan. I feel like there is such a huge world out there that anything is possible and I'm just limiting my results. I guess you could call this another phase of letting go. When you are quite content with yourself and allowing the universe to deliver to you what is best for you.
The universe knows you more than you know yourself, and we have to get over ourselves and trust. Looking back, I remember the countless of times I had prayed, begged, even bartered with God to grant me something and when I finally got it I realized that it wasn't for me or what I wanted. My ex husband in particular. I thought I was so inlove then, now the mere thought of him makes me gagg. However something beautiful came out of that painful relationship. If it wasn't for him I wouldn't have my daughter. And if it wasn't for his clear contrast, I wouldn't know what I want so badly now in a relationship.
Morgan, keep on your journey, the best is yet to come. Next year this time will be a much bigger and better step than now.