I just finished crying but happy tears.
Today was a great day. I saw my friends and we got a Christmas present for my professor. After I put my son to bed, I did yoga, a confidence meditation, then a gratitude prayer. After my gratitude prayer I decided to do my focus wheel then look at my vision board. I don't like to do the same things in the exact same order every day or I become a manifesting robot so I switched it up. I'm so glad I did, I was really feeling it deep in my soul tonight.
When I was scrolling through my iPad I saw a video Austin recorded just for me in the middle of the night the first day we ever spoke to each other. It was him playing his acoustic singing Hurt. I burst into tears when I saw the date was the 17th, just like today. (Well now it's the 18th as I write this, but still). I had no idea what the exact date of our meeting was but when I looked back and saw that I happened to be watching it on that day I saw it as a sign. Plus I've been seeing 1111 and 111 all day. Also 222.
All the memories flooded back to me. God, this guy really loved me then and he loves me now. He was driving 3 hours twice a week just to see me, when he could have been with any girl. He was always making me little videos. He spent every free minute he had speaking to me via text or calls. He told me things he wouldn't tell his friends or family. And we had our beautiful son together. All doubt is replaced by faith. I'm now more sure than anything in this world that Austin feels this way about me right now or I wouldn't be so overwhelmed with this love. I'm so grateful for this aha moment.