I forgot to put that the texting thing happened on the 12th, btw. I want to keep everything together in this thread aha
Interesting enough, I'm not super excited about it because it felt right to be there with him and his family today. I like watching this unfold organically and I don't care to force anything or rush anything. It was nice seeing him. It was lovely to see how eager he was to hang on to my every word, to walk me out, hold our hug that he initiated for a long time and he also Went in for another one. He didn't want me to leave. He was still talking to me, but I told him I had to go. I felt like a whole person. Not less of myself because he was in the room. I used to dwindle a bit in his presence, not talk in groups. I was me today. I worried when he came around I would lose myself entirely, but all I've done during this process was learn to stand on my own two feet and if he's down for the ride then that's nice. If not, that's okay too. So far he's pretty down though!