I'm tired of swinging back and forth on the spectrum of feelings. There are times I can let go and feel completely awesome about myself and the goals I'm working toward. Then there are times like today where I can't get her out of my head. The hurt of what she did just pains me and no matter how hard I try I can't let go. I want to just forget about her and move on. I'm not even sure I want this anymore. I just want me back. I want to be happy again.