I was meditating one time and I said youniverse send me someone new it was out of the hurt that I was feeling at the time. I started hanging out with them I had sex with them a couple times out of spite and hurt again When I first met them I liked them but I really don’t want them and I keep ceeing and getting is signs that my ex is where I ought to be I feel horrible and sick to my stomach as to what I should do it’s definitely a lesson to learn. I wanna continue being friends with them but that’s it. It’s lust and I’m sorry to myself for this but I guess I have to go through this