I am doing her meditations too., but, have not materialised much. other than I am unblocked. lol
I am doing my best to forget of the time. Though I am having a hard time not stalking again. I believe, I truly believe. I think I am still getting rid off my beliefs of not being worthy enough or not being this or that for him, so thats when I obviosuly doubt. I see a like to a couple or to an ex lover and I feel angry. but I can recognise it goes back to, I feel he is not approving of me, or I wish he thought of me when he liked that couple. I know it is me who has to aprove of myself. I think Istill have resenment too. again, I am aware I have to work on loads of things.
but others I read into everything really positively.. fear comes in waves ughhh but I really want to stay in the wish fulfilment, i am making plans for myself to go to another continent so I try to keep myself busy.
but well on the surface it appears that way, but I really did not ask him to do so, and he did. we were communicating through email.
so, did you have any resenment or anyone here does, it is like an inmense love but I can hold grudges and well he has been sometimes unfair, but like agnes says .. everyoen is you pushed out.. any advice?
and super congratulations, that must have been amazing, i visualise him asking me to get married. and hope for him to fly to europe to see me and travel with me