so hello again everybody, hope everyone is having a good day. I hope someone takes the time to read this so they can give me their opinion on what is goin on. I discovered the law of attraction about 4 months ago, but am just now starting to really believe. Let me go back some time. Im just a normal person when I was alot younger I had everything. Family friends and a relationship, it all came so ezey dint really haftoo put any effort it just existed. As the years went by I got into another relationship that went horribly wrong. Really bad, its too much to explain. I went through a horrible depression, like suicidal and everything in my life went in a downward spiral. Slowly but surely I made so many enemy. Even in my own family I got back stabbed in ways I never imagined. There was no hope I hated my life, couldnt handle the pain. I dint realize I hade attracted so many bad situations. After so many years I started to look into Loa, and although it all sounds fine and great, its proving to be alot harder than what I was expecting. I recently started really applying Loa into my life, but it seems like I take 1step forward and 2 steps backwards. So the only thing I can come up with is residual negative energy in me. Could it be that I have so much negativity built up that it needs a way to escape?. When people see me I always have a smile and always am very playful, but no one haves any idea how much I suffer inside. I know I am better than this I have so many great things to offer,and I have came a long way from where I was in life. I want to believe so much that things can change but one minute I feel very inspired and the next everything goes down hill.