Thanks PixelPie 
I have been doing a lot of visualisations with strong emotions lately about meeting my person and reuniting and I feel the visualisations come nicely and feel real and I have been doing a bit of rs too. I just feel lately since seeing him, I've had him on my mind all the time, for the first time in a very long time, I'm accidentally obsessing over him and most of the things I think are positive but I feel there is resistance there. On the one hand, I realise now that even after a year I still have a strong desire to be reunited with him and it isn't out of neediness, but I am now feeling myself get accidentally needy because my last interraction with him just left me with a strong desire for more interractions ! I know that on his mind his only resistance towards more interractions is that girl, that's it, nothing about me I'm sure. I feel like if we were to meet up, he would be very tempted to cheat (I wouldn't allow that though) but he would have in himself a very strong urge to be unfaithful which is why he's blocking me out.
