Hi guys, so this is my first post. I have read and printed out the advice you all have been sharing with each other, so I know that you have what it takes to help me.
So I am months into my LOA journey and I have never found any better therapy for myself. I believe everything is always working out for me and learning to appreciate the ride, instead of just wishing I was where I want to be. 

It has been 3-1/2 months now since I have last spoken/seen my lover. I believe I have been focusing on me, becoming the best version of me, and learning to enjoy the simplicities of life. I believe I am the creator of my own world and I know I can do it.

With all of that being said, today I had such an awful day. It has been the worst 24 hours in a long time. To cut a long story short, last night I felt extremely desperate- like nothing was working and that my lover was not coming back. I began to cry and my heart began to race. It felt awful. From there I saw he was no longer following me on Instagram, I then became needy, texted him and he told me he was moving to Canada in November. To then put the final nail into the coffin, I said I wanted to see him before he left, he proceeded to say we can see each other but only as friends obviously. I just had a long cry in the shower, but I still know I love him and I will be with him, I just don't know how. I doubt. I fear. I know I shouldn't. I'm a bit of a mess.

Can anyone assist? Is this part of the process? Can the relationship return even with the moving to Canada (I'm from New Zealand, so it's another world away)

Thanks for reading!!
-Elena
 

Last edited by classicsplendour (8/14/2018 1:50 am)