I want to really encourage you to do everything you can to stay in the wish fulfilled. You have to really feel yourself into your prefered reality and stay there. Forget who you are now and be the person who has what you want. I can guarantee you, that your love will come really quickly. I lost myself on the way, but at the entire beggining, when my boyfriend broke up with me (he broke up with me because he was too busy.. but it happened because he started going on work experiences and i made huge problem from it and imagined us almost long distance, even when he lives near me, and i was feeling like he will broke up with me because of it, the last week i was feeling myself being his exgirlfriend, haha.. and guess what.. it happened exactly the way i expected it to happen..).. but then i picked myself up and for one whole day, i really felt myself being his girlfriend. I was thinking that i will tell him what happened to me that day, i was planning our future... BUT IT WAS NOT FORCED, IT CAME NATURAL TO ME. And at some point i had to convice myself that i'm not there yet. And the day after, i randomly met him and he wanted to go for a walk with me. He even hugged me in front of his friends and told me he loves me. We started chatting again but i had fears about him being too busy and my success quickly ended. But if i knew how to do it that time, i would definitely be with him for a while now.  Another example.. i was always a great student with great marks, but this year i was having a problem with one of subjects and it was looking really bad, like i will have E on my testimonial. But yesterday i conviced myself that i'm not that bad and i will make it somehow. I had no clue how it will happen, because i was also conviced that from latest exam, i have E as well.. Well, today our teacher told me marks from last few tests and.. i found out that i got some good marks from tests that i don't evern remember i wrote. So now i'm going to have C on.my testimonial. Don't know if that makes sense, sorry if it doesn't, but i wanted you to see that this stuff works and only thing that is needed is your ability to lost yourself in your prefered reality.