I know I'm a little late but happy birthday!!
Another thing I wanted to add is every time you feel negative about something try to find a way to turn that into a positive. For example my love seems as if there are still some bad feelings the couple times we have talked. I look at that as there are still feelings there. He cares! Otherwise he wouldn't be upset!
"You can be, do, and have whatever you want. You are the creator of your reality."