sweetie    because your manifesting with worry and anger    you NEED to let it go  forgive to make a permanent good change in your relationship     In every relationship   there is the chaser and the chased   its the way it goes   when he responds  look at it as  him  tagging you "it"    
perhaps  visualize him pursuing you   do it  with all the joy in your heart you can muster   make it a fun chase   never infuse drama in your visualizations     or even a hint of discord   

Being angry at yourself   only makes things worse     meditate    and be VERY kind to yourself sweetie      hey visualize him taking off the mule ears  and not being so stubborn     I have struggled for more patience  that and detachment are the hardest    but when you do it   honestly it works