So, this is my first post...It might be long! 😉 I've been trying to attract him back into my life for almost a year now. We went our separate ways almost 15 years ago! For a long time I was happy with the way things were but as time has gone on I've just started to miss him more and more.
Last summer I really started getting into all this but I was kind of obsessed with the outcome. I needed to have it I had to have him...Now, now, now! Lol
Around the holidays I started to relax a little and had been doing visualizations on running into him at a store.  With the holidays approaching I think I just felt happier and more relaxed with my own life and the fun and joy ahead.
Well, I ran into him 3 times in a store. The first time he was checking out as I was walking in. I gave him a wave and he waved back! (Big deal for us our story has lots of ins and outs) I was on cloud 9. So of course I really wanted to do it again! 😉 the second and 3rd times had no interactions not even sure he knew I was there but it still happend. I was a bit weirded out as it had been NEVER that we just randomly ran into each other in a store. I repeat NEVER!
So of course now I'm all about this. I started trying to force it (doing rs, lots of visualization and all kinds of other things) and nothing...NOTHING for 3.5 months. Then recently I just kinda started thinking maybe I'm ok with my life maybe he wasn't good for me. (This part confuses me) I was really just going to go on with life and there he is in a store. I had stopped doing everything for over a month. This time we actually exchanged the typical "hi, how are you?" IM Good. Routine and I hate that because all I wanted to say I couldn't. 
I got completely nervous and walked away fast after that. I had my son with me and we went to the check out.  I kid you not the cash register kept eating my check. It literary would not take it. So there we stand and my heart is racing just knowing this is all the universe lol. Then here he comes walking up to the register. We meet eyes and he came and stood in line right by us. Originally my son had been stand in between us but my ex was standing really close and it made him uncomfortable and he moved behind me.  (Hes never met thus person lol) You guys...I totally chickened out and didn't even look at him 🤦‍♀️ I kind feel like he was being a little.flirty too he was leaning up against.the wall really within my comfort zone. It was kind of strange. I'm so mad that I didn't talk or say goodbye I just walked out like whatever...lol
Long story short he hurt me bad back then and I think I'm just not used to being around him 🙈
Anyway...I dwaddled in the parking lot to see him walk out. He walked out and went to his truck so i pulled out as I had to stop at my sister's house. I had to go back by the store on my way home 15 min latter and he was still at.the store and not in his car?! So I'm totally thinking he fake checked out to stand near me?!
Anyway...I was flying pretty high after the most major event to happen in 15 years lol
So, this weekend I had to leave town and I asked for some signs. Just to see what would happen. Well, in a museum I didn't plan to stop in a woman slid ahead of me at check out... no big deal...but her conversation was! Lol. She paid for her things and the attendant told her she could tour  some more of the mesuem through the doors of the gift shop. She said oh I'm waiting for a friend first. A few second later her friend got there and It was so sweet. You could tell by the way They looked at each other they are more than or want to be more than friends. Then he says to her the exact things I had been rs'ing to my guy. He said you look so good, it's been to long I've missed you so much! 😯

Twilight zone! Haha

Then a few hours later at an event I was attending I walk outside and the first booth  was blairing our song that I always invasion being our wedding song.

What do you guys think?! I'm flying pretty high but I don't want to start NEEDING it Again and mess it all up.

Help me NOT to do that?

I'm thinking maybe just focusing on the joy of knowing the universe has my back. I've seen to many signs for it not to be on it's way! I want to focus on it as long as I don't start missing him...because I love dreaming of what life will be like. I know like I know this will happen 😊

I don't mind randomly running into him  it is like more...how do I manifest a conversation? I feel like I stuck myself on just running into him! Haha

Last edited by leigh82 (3/23/2018 11:42 pm)