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Little help, please?
Today is a difficult day. I've been doing my best to stay in a high vibration, aligned with my goal, and reinforcing my belief.
However, my love is on his way down to DC to participate in the political protests (no political commentary, please) with some of his roommates today and I have seen so much stuff online today about violence during the protests. I am worried about his safety and had to resist the urge to send him a text asking him to stay safe and be careful, as I am maintaining NC and want to stay committed to that. It makes me sad and wish that I was there with him and it's bringing my whole vibration down and damaging my certainty that he IS coming back to me.
Please help me realign.
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For every negative person, there is a positive one. He will be among and around the people that are avoiding any signs of trouble.
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My sense of missing him is strong today. I really need to shake myself out of this. Perhaps doing a PW visualization a little later will be comforting because it's an easy means of connection.
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Yes, PW is a great way to spend time with him.
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I appreciate the support. I was feeling lower vibrationally and sad and whiny. I did some real examination of WHY and stopped beating myself up.
I need to spend more time loving on myself and concentrating on seeing myself as the woman I'd want him to see. Not for HIM, but for myself. He's just the bonus, y'know? And I didn't realize how hard that'd be for me or that I had so much resistance to it.
It's really helping in terms of surrendering things to the universe to manifest instead of stressing about it, because if he loved me BEFORE, he's sure as sh*t not gonna be able to stay away after my internal overhaul.
I scripted a surrender to the universe for everything I want and will read it out loud every day as often as I have to when I'm feeling resistant. Still gonna do PW/BWD etc, but after getting myself into a mindset where I feel like a powerful irresistible bad-ass vamp, which should help. I'd like to see it as an act of fun and gratitude rather than one of desperation.
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May I ask who initiated the NC? If its you who initiated the NC and things arnt bitter btw you, I feel it can be a sign that the universe gives you to send a text. Asking someone that they are OK or not is just HUMAN. You can do it if u feel so strongly about it. Cant a friend ask another if they are OK or not, i mean after knowing about some disturbance? I feel its just OK, send a text only it makes u feel ok. Again dont expect anything. If he replies, good, if he dosnt, dont be mad. LOA sometimes makes us take action....there are few here who initiated a contact after NC and started talking again. You have a strong reason. Do it if u feel so. Its just my personal opinion. Best wishes.
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BellaLupa wrote:
I was feeling lower vibrationally and sad and whiny. I did some real examination of WHY
That helps a lot....
Which makes this easier:
I need to spend more time loving on myself and concentrating on seeing myself as the woman I'd want him to see. Not for HIM, but for myself.
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May I ask who initiated the NC? If its you who initiated the NC and things arnt bitter btw you, I feel it can be a sign that the universe gives you to send a text. Asking someone that they are OK or not is just HUMAN. You can do it if u feel so strongly about it. Cant a friend ask another if they are OK or not, i mean after knowing about some disturbance? I feel its just OK, send a text only it makes u feel ok. Again dont expect anything. If he replies, good, if he dosnt, dont be mad. LOA sometimes makes us take action....there are few here who initiated a contact after NC and started talking again. You have a strong reason. Do it if u feel so. Its just my personal opinion. Best wishes.
I respect your reasoning, but it doesn't feel right at this time to break NC because I need to concentrate on my own state of mind and keep the positive headspace going. It's only been 2 weeks, so I'm going to keep the expectation that he will reach out first for now, as I know he was feeling overwhelmed and wants some space. I may revise my feeling at a later time if I feel genuinely inspired to do so without a sense of anxiety attached to it.
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Jesus H, Universe...
So, I spoke to the Universe today and said "Please protect my love, and give me a sign that he's on his way back to me."
On my way home tonight from a class, I was texting with one of our mutual friends whose girlfriend was part of the group that was going to be going down to DC and found out that not only did the trip get cancelled (the car broke down right in front of the house), but I then walked into my apartment and looked through the mail on the kitchen table and saw a piece of mail that was addressed to someone who didn't live here but had THE SAME FIRST NAME AS MY LOVE, SPELLED THE SAME WAY, which is NOT common.
Ok, Universe. Gotcha. I continue to surrender.
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Jesus H, Universe...
So, I spoke to the Universe today and said "Please protect my love, and give me a sign that he's on his way back to me."
On my way home tonight from a class, I was texting with one of our mutual friends whose girlfriend was part of the group that was going to be going down to DC and found out that not only did the trip get cancelled (the car broke down right in front of the house), but I then walked into my apartment and looked through the mail on the kitchen table and saw a piece of mail that was addressed to someone who didn't live here but had THE SAME FIRST NAME AS MY LOVE, SPELLED THE SAME WAY, which is NOT common.
Ok, Universe. Gotcha. I continue to surrender.
Certainly not a coincidence. And yet another example of how the universe helps you out. Happy for you!
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