So after half a year of not seeing or even texting each other and another two months of texting thanks to loa, I have finally met him again. He knew I was going to a halloween party to a club he really hates. I was so happy that he came just because of me and it was after midnight. We were talking for about two hours and I was so happy he was there with me. He got me drunk during that time and about 2:30 am he told me he has to go because he has to get up early and didn't even kiss me goodbye which made me kind of sad.
I know I should feel bad in any way because I have just took it one huge step further which is just amazing and I am so so grateful for it. I think I just want to have everything too fast. I wish the best for all of you Just wanted to remind you, that is working. Even though its not as fast as we would like it to be. If anyone of you knows how to speed up this proces or get happier, please let me know.